Bedlam Farm Blog Journal by Jon Katz

26 December

The Last Pansy. Wishing You All A Wonderful Week. See You Thursday. Zip Says Goodbye

by Jon Katz

I will miss Zip for the next few days; he always waits for me in the morning; I love starting the day that way. I imagine he will miss me. But I don’t worry about him; he is the unchallenged Prince Of Bedlam Farm, another animal who marks the passage of my life. He’s happy and spoiled; one probably has something to do with the other.

Maria found a heroic little pansy growing in the grass a few weeks ago,  just as it was getting cold. She brought it into the house, put it into a tiny vase, and placed it by the window. It’s my color and light photo of the day.

Zip has at least a half dozen sleep sites all picked out; he looks like he grew out of the ground here. I met with him and told him we were going away. He seemed to take it in stride. He and our farm babysitter have already met and are good friends. Zip is no fool.

I love the mist in the morning; it seems iconic and timeless, and the animals stand out in silhouette. AI will never supplant my photography.

26 December

Farm Journal, New Vacation, From Disney To A Vermont Inn: Two Days Off, Today (Tuesday) And Tomorrow (Wednesday). Be Well, Dry, Warm And Fulfilled

by Jon Katz

A decade ago, just before we married, the winter was brutally cold. I had some money to spend at the time, and we went to Disney World for a week to get warm, swim in the pool, and stuff ourselves with good and expensive goods.

By then, Disney was being completely corporatized, expensive, and extremely crowded, but the weather was beautiful, the pool was nearby, and the food was good. It was nice to get warm, but my head was ringing with screaming, exhausted children, pleading and edgy parents,  long lines, and cash registers ringing up endless souvenirs.

We went for a short visit one more time in one different winter (I was invited to speak at a vet conference); I can’t remember which one. That was our farewell visit to Disney.

Disney had become nearly overwhelmed with the crowds and is now ridiculously expensive.

The difference between Walt Disney and his corporate replacements is evident. He loved success but had limits. He never wanted Disney World to be so crowded you have to make reservations months in advance or cost a thousand dollars a day.  There was a magical quality to it that is long gone. The money people quickly canceled his vision of a revolutionary city for employees – free housing, school, health care – and Epcot Theme Park is not another money machine. No matter how brief, it’s not a vibe I want on a vacation.

He always thought of how things would seem to a child full of wonder. The wonder is long gone, and the ride wait is longer than ever.  A one-day ticket can cost up to $159 a day. The lines are so long that you must buy extra tickets to the front. It’s no longer magical to me.

I don’t think of going there anymore, not even in the winter. Apart from that, Florida seems to me to be getting a little creepy, edging to the new federation of angry hate states.

Maria and I are in a different place; we define wealth, happiness, and comfort differently. I would trade our winter evenings by the wood stove for Disney or anything like it. Our warmth comes from inside of us. We do not lead a life of fantasies. We seek a more straightforward and more meaningful kind of rest. And right now, we need one.

I wonder why, in America these days, the people with the least to complain about are the angriest and most complaining of anyone.

Our ideas of vacationing have evolved somewhat radically. Disney is no longer on our list of possible sites. We love an ancient Inn in Vermont instead. It is peaceful and quiet there; the rooms are beautiful and don’t ever have substantial TV screens, and the food is lovely. We honeymooned there, and we feel safe and comfortable there.

We’ve changed quite a bit since Disney. I should say that Maria would probably never have gone to Disney World if not for me; I took my daughter there a couple of times and always dreamed of going myself when I was younger. Our marriage has changed us, I’m more like her, and she is a little bit more like me (the good parts.) It’s a good mix for both of us, I think.

Having a lot of money was never good for me and did not make me happy. I was thrilled riding around with Maria on Christmas Day and delivering dinners to people who needed them. There are lessons there, and I am feeling them.

It’s almost impossible for us to rest on the farm; there is so much to do, and the Internet is a sinkhole with no escape. Social media messaging seems a bit of a curse to me. I do very little of it.

The animal care is not simple or easy. We don’t like being away for a week or two, and the money situation is different, as it is for everyone but the billionaires. We live more wisely. That was Maria’s work also.

I am very sorry to say neither of us has any families to visit, but not very; we are making and loving our own families. Life is what you make of it; we live very much in the now and happily. I’ve learned not to live by other people’s expectations but by my own. Maria’s simplicity is infectious.

I’m no longer a best-selling author (I have a very successful blog, thanks. Life is entirely of crisis and mystery) with big royalty checks, and I am happier than ever. Our Inn is not cheap, but the room costs would pay for about half a day at Disney World, and it is a lot nicer and more peaceful.

So we’ll be off around noon today. I’ve got the new “Maid” mystery, “The Mystery Guest,” by Nita Prose, and I can’t wait to get in the small reading room corner that is part of our room. It even has a bright reading lamp. I liked the first “Maid” book, it’s light and cheerful, the perfect escape mystery.  I’m also taking the novel “North Woods” by Daniel Mason.

It doesn’t have a TV or computer, and the iPhones will be off. How sweet. We’ll be back on Thursday and working a half-day through the weekend. Photos will continue, and words will be fewer. Have a wonderful week, please.

The agenda is rest, rest, more rest, and quiet. We need it and will return revived and at ease. It is our very safest place. We rest there as in no other place. I don’t know anyone who hasn’t had a trying year one way or another. Blessings to all of you. May the new year bring you peace and meaning and a break from drought, fires, and brutal storms.

I’ll share my lifelong motto: Do Not Let The Peckerheads and Toothless Ducks get you down. They will nibble you to death.

 

25 December

Color And Light, As Promised, On Christmas Day

by Jon Katz

Below, Fate is at rest in the shadows of the sun. I sometimes think Fate is an artist at heart. We’re planning a peaceful Christmas evening. Tomorrow afternoon, we’re heading to Vermont for two days of rest, love, reading, and talk. We’re aiming at much-needed rest and much-needed peace.

See you in the morning.

25 December

Christmas Farm Journal, 2023: Delivering Christmas Dinners, What Christmas Is All About. Community Lives

by Jon Katz

The Cambridge Community Christmas Dinner invited volunteers to the American Legion Hall on Christmas Day. They asked people to help cook meals, clean and set the tables, and drive dinners to people who couldn’t make it themselves or didn’t want to be seen in public.

(Above, the volunteers cooking Christmas Dinner.)

The non-profit community group has only one mission: making sure everybody who wants or needs a good homemade Christmas dinner can get one. Then, the group – volunteers included teachers, nurses, homemakers, farmes, transplanted New Yorkers, all volunteers  – dissolves until the next Christmas. We’re in for next year.

Say what you will about country people; they never forget people with low incomes and needy and rush to help whenever possible.

This was just what Maria and I needed – something that would make Christmas real for us and honor the true spirit of the holiday, which is not shopping for bargains or fighting at family dinners.

Lots of people have lovely Christmas dinners with their families. Many people don’t, but you don’t hear much about them.

We are inventing our idea of a meaningful Christmas, and helping other people is the core of it.

It’s gratifying to meet people in our community who come together to do this repeatedly. It means something in such an angry and divided country.

(The tables were all set and ready and soon full of people.)

If you live in the country, as we do, you will come nose to nose with a decimated economy and culture and a lot of poverty.

This is little money around here; it is not the realm of tech smarties or billionaires; they have all gone to the cities to blow up housing prices.

This is a big reason why so many country people dislike cities and see them as elitist and unfair.

Maria and I jumped at the chance to deliver some of the dinners to those who needed them. Everyone one of the five families was in our town, and together, they needed to feed 17 people.

(Volunteers and organizers helped us load up the meals in the car. They were neatly and securely packaged.)

We got a carefully detailed list of the names and addresses of the people waiting for their meal, and we used GPS to figure out where they all were and what the fastest way to get to them was.

It was a beautiful experience for us, to see these people, some of whom we knew – some were elderly and unable to travel or too weak to cook – and hear how grateful they were to get their dinner delivered.

One woman – I had to carry the food inside and put it on her walker; she couldn’t handle it by herself. She was so grateful she pressed $10 into my hand to thank me.

I said we didn’t do this for pay and couldn’t accept her money, but she was so adamant I said I would donate it to the Community Committee. She said that was okay, and I donated.

We saw some poverty, and we saw some trouble.

One woman said she couldn’t take time out to cook because the fighting in her family was so bad nobody wanted to eat together, and she didn’t know how or what to cook for them.

She was, she said, in the middle of a dreadful family fight. She was happy to get the meal.

People were waiting at their front doors for us to visit, expecting us.

It took us about two hours to get all the nicely wrapped meals to the people who had asked for them. Nobody was turned down; people who could pay did, and people who couldn’t get a meal without any questions asked.

The women who prepared the meals were sensitive, careful, and proud of what they were doing. They worked hard and efficiently; I kept thinking of Willa Cather’s stories about small towns gathering together to help people experiencing poverty and hunger.

The American Legion offered its spacious meeting room; it is often used to help people in need, including farmers injured in accidents or families challenged by Cancer and other illnesses.

We both were happy to be doing something rather than bitching and whining about the news and the cost of things.

(The children of Cambridge pitched in to make beautiful Christmas cards; there was one at every seat and table. Up here, kids are asked to participate. Farm kids don’t get to spend much time on TikTok.) 

The morning was the best example of a community that cares and where people get help if they need it. It made our day and left us feeling great; we had discovered Christmas. This is what Jesus Christ urged his followers to do.

It sometimes feels like he has been overlooked in all the chaos, media, politics, and greed.

We’re heading to Vermont for two days tomorrow and plan to cut back on our work somewhat until the end of the week. That’s also a part of Christmas – peace and contemplation. We’ll be doing some tomorrow, along with some good books.

While delivering food, we returned to the American Legion and bought lunch for ourselves. It was delicious – ham, coleslaw, squash, cheesecake, apple sauce, and potatoes – as much as people wanted to eat. It was full of people.

We sat and talked with people from the food community and people who came in for the food. This is what we wanted for Christmas: a day of compassion, meaning, and empathy—a Happy Christmas for us, and I hope, for everyone reading this.

And a special Happy Christmas to the Cambridge Community Christmas Dinner. You made Christmas a lot better for a lot of people. So did our community.

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