Bedlam Farm Blog Journal by Jon Katz

4 January

Great News! Guess Who’s Coming To Work At Subway When School Gets Out? A New Chapter For Me And The Army Of Good

by Jon Katz

Therese, the manager of the Subway in my town, Cambridge, New York, announced today that Faith, an Intellectually Disabled student at our high school who has been yearning for work and a chance to show the world what she can do,  has a job.  It’s terrific news.

We got approval from the owners,” Terese said, “Faith will have a job this summer for as long as she wants it!” This is a minor miracle but a beautiful one.

Therese said her plea and the post I wrote two weeks ago helped turn the tide.

The high school sent out a couple of hundred flyers to see job opportunities for three disabled students. Therese was the first and only person to respond. Therese was born to do this work; she has a huge heart and a natural gift for communicating with these children, teaching them, and persuading them that they can work hard and skillfully.

It was heartlifting to see how happy she was when she told Faith the news and to see Faith break out in a wide smile. There is something wonderful and unique about helping someone who wants to show the world what they can do get the opportunity.

(Faith and, hopefully, the other two students will be hired under the Leap Program; the county will pay Faith’s pay for up to 20 hours a week. Through its benefits assistance services, LEAP helps people with disabilities and older adults learn about and gain access to government programs that can help them access some financial support.)

As for Faith, she was delighted and broke into her vast and beautiful smile.

Faith is the real deal. I am impressed by her intelligence, professionalism, and enthusiasm for work. As two of her teachers sat by and smiled, I interviewed her for the second time and asked her many annoying questions (I was a reporter), which she handled with grace, honesty, and poise.) She’s already quite comfortable laughing at me. I told her it was OK to say, “I don’t know,” which she often did.

I’ve met the two other students entering the program and will talk with them in the coming weeks. Today was important to me as well as the students. This opens up another sound channel, including the Mansion and refugee Work. I’m excited about it.

I asked Faith if she was nervous about making her first sandwich (it is more complex than it looks to do it right). The customer comes and stands in front of the counter. The staff asks what they want, wraps or big long sandwiches, and the customer then points to or calls out the vegetables and meat they want in the sandwich.

The process is transparent, and the customer sees everything in their sandwich. I go to the subway once or twice a week to bring lunch home if one of us is too busy to make lunch. I immediately fell in love with Therese, and we had fun when we met.

She said she was uneasy only for a few minutes; Therese, she said, stood by and helped her when she needed it. The only guidance she needs now, she said, is on wrapping the sandwich up when it was all made. “I want to work,” she said, “and I want to work here.”

Therese is proud of her students; they feel like her own children. Faith has a lovely smile, but she lights up around Therese.

She said she would leave the room while I ordered my sandwiches from Faith and be close by if needed. She didn’t want to make Faith nervous by standing over her. There was no need. I got my perfect sandwiches.

Like everyone working at Subway, Faith and her fellow students put on white plastic gloves before touching any food.

Faith made two sandwiches, one for me (below) and one for Maria.

I’ve been buying sandwiches from Subway for months, and I don’t know where everything is – there are at least 20 open pans of different vegetables and meat. I don’t eat meat, but Faith breezed through my order in a minute or so, the suitable vegetables, the right proportions, and, with a bit of help, the proper wrapping. She asked all the right questions and understood all of the requests.

Therese says in just one visit, Faith memorized each option, where they were, and how many to put into a sandwich. Faith is aware that some people think disabled children can’t work. She is proud to be showing the world otherwise.

 

 

(Faith is making my sandwich, a wrap with onions, cucumbers, tomatoes, lettuce, and olives, with oil and vinegar dressing. She moves fast and remembers everything.)

It is a particular pleasure to watch Terese work with these children. Her warmth, humor, and empathy shine through, and the children are drawn to and happy to work with and for her. She connects with them, and they trust and listen to her.

I’m like Faith a lot, and respecting her. I suspect she gets a kick out of me, but she often looks at me strangely, as if she can’t quite figure me out.

Faith hesitates when questioned, then thinks it through. If she is intimidated in any way by me, she’s hiding it well. As I always do when I interview someone her age (18), I ask her what her interests are outside of school. She said she loves country music. I asked her if she had a speaker for her music, and she said no. I asked her if she wanted one, and she said yes. She has an older Iphone that will play music.

I went online on my iPhone, and we looked through all the speakers together. I liked the round Apple speaker I bought a couple of years ago. She said it wasn’t the right shape. I showed her round, narrow, blue, and silver speakers; she had one particular shape in mind and declined any others. I like this about Faith: she has her own ideas and is honest and direct once she gets comfortable.

Finally, I showed her the Bose Bluetooth wireless speaker, and she nodded. That was the one she wanted. The straight one, not the round one. That was the one I ordered.

Kids like Faith have difficulty finding work. People assume they are impaired and challenging to work with. I can see that is not true.

Today, I met one of the other students in the program, his name is, Nicholas (below). I’ll be talking with him next week. Therese said Nicholas likes to work in the back, filling the vending machines and organizing the preparation room. He’s not comfortable making sandwiches yet.

She said he does a great job; he is eager to work and remembers everything he is told. He and I shook hands and made plans to sit down and talk. While I was there, he re-stacked the ice and beverage machines. He knew where everything went. Therese says these students are as good workers as any of the others she has hired. They come to work on time, are enthusiastic, and work hard every minute they are there.

 

(Faith, Therese, Nicholas)

 

Faith makes a sandwich for a new customer all by herself.

(I love watching Therese and Faith together; their bond is beautiful and full of trust and love. Therese loves this work and is very good at it. I hope she pursues it, and I will do everything I can to help her do that if she decides that’s what she wants to do.)

As always, two teachers from Cambridge Central School came to keep an eye on the program, but the kids went right to work and did a first-rate job.

The more I see teachers and nurses, the more it is apparent that we are a backward country regarding priorities and needs.

We spend billions of dollars on things we may or may not need and precious little on people we need – teachers, nurses, health care workers. Somewhere along the way, we lost our hearts and our ability to empathize and came to worship only money. People like Therese show us just how wrong that is.

She is a natural, gifted social worker with no training and an underappreciation of her gifts.

I’m badgering her about that, urging her to sign up online or at a college for help in learning how to help disabled and disadvantaged children. I said I wish to enlist the Army Of Good in this new work, a new chapter for me, and to help pay for some schooling. If she doesn’t, these children will have lost an angel who can help them.

I’ll keep you posted. The blog exists to do good in the world. This is tailor-made for the Army of Good.

Some of these kids have financially troubled families. We might be able to help with the small but essential things children need.

These children are more than worthy and able to work. But they all need some help and support. I’ll be back there next week.

4 January

Americana

by Jon Katz

As is evident, I love taking photos of the fallen barns and sheds that dot farms nationwide. We have a living history here. Most farmers don’t bother to knock these buildings down; they leave them alone to wither proudly and without apology. Farmers never throw anything away.

This shed will be used one day to build or repair something else. That looks like some cottage residence, but it might also be a feed and food shed for horses or donkeys.

4 January

Bedlam Farm Journal, Thursday, January 4, 2024. Snow, For A While

by Jon Katz

I woke up to snow this morning and rushed outside in my new bathrobe with the Leica Monochrome. I’m so glad to have a monochrome again; it is old and used but in great shape. I will have a good time with the camera for the Winter Pasture, as the snow is great for monochrome.

Zip and I had our first-morning meeting in the snow. He was not bothered by it or anything else I know of.

Maria and I went out for breakfast and paid a deposit to the dental surgeon in Saratoga Springs – Dr. Killing – who will be doing the first surgery in the implant process. Sometime in the Spring, I’ll have all my teeth back in my mouth. Dr. Killing knows what he is doing.

Two were missing; one is back, and the second implant base is coming on February 15. There were a couple of inches of snow this morning; most of it melted already. But I got some nice photos while it was on the ground. In a few minutes, I’m heading to Subway to see Faith, the intellectually disabled high school student who is working at Subway as part of a pilot program to show that these children are capable of work.

Below, I posted the snow flurry and caught the sky opening after it. Climate change is scary; climate change is beautiful.

Fate is happy to run circles in the snow while the sheep ignore her and eat some hay.

The sky began to clear around 10 a.m.; the snow melted quickly. A little taste of things to come.

Zip and I visited St. Joseph; he is my saint of the weather.

Manure is manure and needs to get shoveled every day, sun or snow.

 

4 January

The Curator And The Snail

by Jon Katz

Every morning, Maria checks her flowers and succulents inside the farmhouse.  She is the curator of the Windowsill Gallery, and it changes every, depending on how the plants look and where the sun is. I only rarely see her tend the flowers, but I was touched by the photo of her doing her morning check. Sometimes, she talks to the plants and moves them; sometimes, she feeds and waters them.

Maria loves snails, and her friend Jackie gave her several. She is pleased to have snails again. This is her favorite, climbing up the side, sucking up algae off of the small tank walls.

3 January

Learning To Live In My Seventies. Seeing Life In A Different Way “I’m Luminous With Age…” I Finally Have A Passion For Life

by Jon Katz

I am luminous with age...”  Meridel Le Sueur, at ninety-six.

The problem with aging is that most of my attention was focused on paying for medicines, obsessing about health, and preparing for infirmity and death.

My belief about aging is different and out of sync with our culture. There is no particular reason to listen to me, and I don’t believe in telling others what to do.

This has put me at odds with countless broken people on what we call social media.

I focus not on how I look and seem to others, how much money I have to give to greedy and uncaring corporations, or what outrage the latest corrupt politician is committing,  but on how I look at life.

Age is when I began to come to terms with myself, and it has little to do with insurance companies and pandering politicians. It has nothing to do with what I was taught.

I worry more about my strength in spirit than the strength in my arms. Doctors never want to talk about the soul, only the pain and worry.

In my life, middle-age is when I came to power, like many people.

I was a journalist and best-selling author in good health and a TV news producer; I had a movie made about my life, and I always had work, was in charge of hundreds of people at times, and was the father of a beautiful child and the husband of a respected journalist. I had no trouble paying my mortgage or my bills.

Death was much too remote to contemplate; I had mountains to climb.

Rather suddenly, it seemed, and quietly, I was permanently dismissed by the influential people in the world. I was no longer one of them, and they no longer had interest in me.

This is not bitterness or regret for me; it is life, and I knew it was coming, even as the power I had amassed and the security were taken away.

When my book sales dropped, I was dropped right alongside the take. This is the way it works in America. I was not surprised. I am not interested in being pitied. There is no reason for that.

I remember telling myself that I had to find in myself whatever it was that gave me a meaningful and rewarding place in the world. I was not going to fade away into the night. I saw that I needed nature and animals and bought a farm to have both.

My desire for this was naive but genuine. I didn’t know how good a decision it was until later. I deeply regret the pain this caused my family.

Nothing good in the world is free.

I changed the way I saw my life. I started a blog against all good advice and have found it my spiritual and creative home for nearly two decades. I sought to find love in the world.

If the power is gone for good, I now have my place and meaning again, and I don’t miss or mourn anything I lost.

I respect the need and right of younger people to take over and take responsibility for their world. I focus on quiet, silence, compassion, love, and truth. It works for me; it makes me happy.

I opened myself up to true love and went to work, learning from my mistakes and embracing spirituality as a direction. I found a partner I had never dreamt of finding.

That has worked for me, also. I no longer believe in absolutes.

I am far less dogmatic, judgemental, and ambitious than before. I will always work to improve myself, but I am pleased with my progress if I don’t get arrogant and complacent about myself anymore.

So far, so good. I am luminous with age.

I see life differently now. Not long ago, I considered my life a competition for money, status, and material things. As our society teaches, I measured myself by the success and wealth of others. Some people know better. I didn’t.

I began thinking about how much money I would need to end my life comfortably – two or three million dollars was the answer I got from the people who prey on the aging.

So, I had a choice to make.

I came to understand – this is just me speaking – that life is something to value for itself, not just for money or the illusion of safety. I know a Mansion resident who had $1.5 million in his bank to prepare for retirement.

One serious illness wiped it all out in a couple of months. His social security is all he has left. He is sorry he wasted his life worrying more about its end than the present.

Whenever I worry about money, I hear him telling me his story.

The insurance companies don’t even accept long-term care insurance any longer. Nobody who needs it can afford it.

To me, the tragedy of life is not losing all that money – when I cracked up, I gave almost all of it away-  but understanding that there are so many people – most of the world – for whom even having enough to live on is beyond them, this as the number of billionaires soars.

Do billionaires need more money to live while most people in this country have less and less? How big can a billionaire’s yacht get? How swollen with money will the 10 percent get? What is enough for them?

I’ve gotten more compassionate in my life, not because I believe in God, but because the God we used to think of was compassionate.

That struck me as the right idea, even if so many religious people have rejected compassion and poverty as a racket enabled by false samaritans.

I’m no saint or Mother Teresa, but it gradually occurred to me that the least I could do in life is to try to help the people who have it worse than I do, those who lack the resources even to start bettering themselves.

There are more, not less, of them than ever.

I have no chance or illusion of saving the world. Just a few people here and there will do. I am hoping it can be contagious.

That’s not my whole life, but it is a critical part of it now, giving me more satisfaction and fulfillment than ever.

It was the idea of death and my awareness of it getting closer that woke me up and called me to a life beyond greed, worry, ambition, jealousy, and resentment.

Death reminded me to live while I could, not fear while I hung on.

My religious friends take comfort in the idea that death, when it comes, is just a prelude. “God is waiting for me,” a dying woman in hospice told me once.,”I am eager to be with him.” She said that knowing there is a God is enough for her.

It’s not enough for me, not yet.

I see death not as my eternal salvation but more and more as a gift, the gift of time.

Death calls me to stop and pay attention to the world around me, to the trees and bugs and birds and flowers and dogs and cats, to embrace color and light, and to respect the darkness, to see the world anew, and when I could, take my photos, love my wife,  and help my new friends.

All I want is to be a better man today, tomorrow, to the end.

My idea of peace of mind is different. Time is short for all things. I also wish I had a God to pray to, but I love the idea.

The time is now.

The time for me is to reflect not just on what I’ve lost in my life but what I’ve gained, what I want, and what I have left. I won’t waste it anymore. How much is that worth in dollars?

My idea is to live a fuller life, not just a faster or longer one.

I don’t know what’s waiting for me after death.

I want to know what’s waiting for me now.

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