Bedlam Farm Blog Journal by Jon Katz

12 January

The Last Sunlight Before The Storm And Frigid Cold. Thanks, Vermont…

by Jon Katz

Driving home from my overdue shopping trip today (my favorite market is in Bennington, Vt.), I saw what is likely to be late blue sky and sun for several days, even longer. Rains and wind come tonight, and no one seems sure what is coming later. West of here, the state has declared a state of emergency and is warning that there could be up to 20 inches. My guess is we won’t be getting that much here.

But if we do, we are prepared. We are storm veterans of two different farms.

I enjoyed taking a few landscape photos on the way to the supermarket. I got a load of fresh fruit as well as fish and tea.

Cow pasture, Route 68, Vermont.

I love these photos of Maria greeting Zip with hugs and rubs this morning. It keeps me warm and smiling.

12 January

Getting The Generator Out. I Brought Home Some Wine And Fresh Salmon. Hot Chocolate Tonight

by Jon Katz

The forecast is occasionally frightening and, in turn, confusing and contradictory. I suspect it isn’t the weather people’s fault; the climate is going for a wild ride and taking us with it. It’s nobody’s fault but our own. We’ve been hearing the warnings for years, but generally, we’d done little about it.

We were as prepared for this storm as possible; we filled the generator with gas and pulled it out by the house. It’s covered in a tarp and ready to go.

The generator is good; it lit up the whole house the last time we needed it, including water, an oil heater, and a refrigerator. I went shopping this afternoon (I met with my new cannabis advisor at the very well-run place in Bennington I went to buy it. I’m eager to test the cannabis for anxiety; it’s not something I need these days, but I am curious to see if it works to calm frayed nerves.

I rarely have panic attacks these days, but a lot is going on in my life. I’d like to know if another backup works and if my sleep gummies have worked. I’m not suffering from anxiety these days so much as restlessness; my mind is racing much of the term, and I want to slow it down. I’m curious, to be truthful.

Anxiety has been a serious part of my life. Maria thinks it’s worthwhile trying, and so does my therapist. I’m thinking about it; there’s no rush.

All these storms are disruptive. The Mansion has lost power twice, and  I’m worried about the extreme arctic cold predicted for Sunday and Monday. They might need additional clothing or help if the power goes on.

The weather alert that has my attention is for the frigid cold next week. The house is secure, but we must be careful about frozen pipes. We also need to ensure the animals have access to fresh, heated water. I bought some fresh salmon for Maria and a small piece of cod for me.

It was interesting. There were people in the market, but not that many. People around her don’t get panicky about the weather even though we are getting some we aren’t used to. Zip was waiting for me when I got home. We had a sweet hug and cuddle.

There’s a good chance the power will go out this weekend – high winds, snow, etc. But I’ll be posting when I can. Please stay dry, warm, and safe. Color and light photos are coming every day. I have power. Maria just went outside and took her clothes off the line. We went to the gas station to fill up our gas cans.

Hang in there, and thanks for all the support and good the Army of Good is doing, as always—a very wonderful week. One of Sue’s students has been diagnosed with severe low iron. She’s getting to a specialist.

12 January

Mansion Meditation: Art Support, White Boards, Paint, And Deep Breathing For Anxiety.

by Jon Katz

We had another particular meditation class at the Mansion today. First, I brought Jim a book on dogs to thank him for his campaign to save dogs from being euthanized. Then Maria and I gave a talk on how to breathe slowly and deeply to counter their anxiety. His favorite rescue group is receiving donations, as he wishes. Thank you for that.

I read several books in my Medication Class, especially essays about the idea that a spiritual life doesn’t come quickly or easily as I am learning. It takes years, often a lifetime. People like me who are into instant gratification must change if they are serious. I talked with the residents about this. I read from the writings of Henri Nouwen and Joan Chittister.

The more I put into it, the more I get out of it. I’m enjoying my experimentation with deep breathing.

We practiced deep breathing.

Maria came too, read some poems, and talked about her meditation experiences. The residents love and trust her. Zinnia, as usual, fell asleep the minute I started talking. I think there is genuine interest in the idea of deep breathing. It’s doing a lot of good for me.

Finally, I took photos of the art and other supplies we are sending to the Mansion so you can see what is needed and how we have been helping.

Above, Jen is my favorite photo subject; she was a model and dancer in Boston, but her health took her out of it. She’s a strong and strong presence at the Mansion. She doesn’t love being photographed commonly, but she wanted me to take her photo today; I think it helps her feel in touch with the world.

After writing this, I’m off to the food shop; we were so busy this week that we ran out of food. Another mega storm is approaching, so I should do it this afternoon. More later. The Mansion work is a beautiful gift for Maria and me. Your support of this work is profoundly meaningful.

I gave Jim a gift to support and thank him for his campaign to save dogs from euthanasia. He has already received several donations to his favorite animal rescue group. His address is Jim Sorer, c/o Paryese Bates Becker, The Mansion, 11 S. Union Avenue, Cambridge, N.Y., 12816.

The Mansion is tearing through its construction and watercolor paper. I keep them from going over budget. The residents love painting and drawing more than anything.

I send a bunch of paper if anyone wants to contribute to the Mansion art program; you can donate to me, Jon Katz, Mansion Fund, P.O. 205, Cambridge, N.Y., 12816, or you can send construction or watercolor paper to the Paryese Baker-Bates, The Mansion, 11 S. Union Avenue, Cambridge, N.Y., 12816. Thanks. The more paper, the more art.

Amazon sells watercolor pads for as little as 9 dollars a pack. The mansion also needs acrylic paint and brushes, but they always run out of those and magic parkers.

We purchased two large whiteboards so the activity staff could write announcements and schedule projects on the board. The residents and aides depend on it.

 

Lunchtime comes right after Medcation Class, and we are often asked to help walk the residents to the dining room. It’s become a sweet and meaningful ritual for us as we as them. Zinnia takes it seriously as well. It’s becoming a favorite photo of mine. We walk them to the dining room,  help them get seated, and say goodbye.

 

On the way out, Claudia asked Maria for help with her puzzle. Claudia, fond of affection and good cheer, gets stuck sometimes. Maria, who is great at puzzles, stops to help her until she gets going again.

12 January

Thank You! Boxes And Boxes Of Healthy Food Are Arriving For Sue’s Breakfast Snack Program

by Jon Katz

A truckload of healthy food for the children in Sue Silverstein’s classroom arrived at Bishop Gibbons High School. Sue asked for healthy food with vitamins and proteins and what she is getting.

She is stunned and thrilled and, for once, speechless. Me too. She spent the morning unpacking boxes with her students. Meanwhile, her art classes are making beautiful sculptures with paper.

This will make a profound difference to these children, some of whom come to school hungry, cold, and tired. These snacks will be an enormous help to them. We can’t thank you enough.

The Army of Good had done a fantastic job of gathering healthy, protein-filled snacks made especially for children. Sue can distribute some of this food to other classes, and students from other classes are welcome to come and share in this miraculous bounty if needed.

The food choices are lovely, tasty, and right on the mark. Thanks, thanks. The paper sculptures are pretty amazing, too.

I can’t stop smiling at the generosity and goodness of people, which is a good thing.

How great this is. How good it feels.

Please keep it coming if you can: Sue Silverstein, Bishop Gibbons High School, Schenectady, N.Y., 12304—many, many thanks. The children are thrilled and grateful.  The food will be distributed and devoured. This means more than I even imagined.

Boxes come from all over the country – Texas, Oregon, California, Kentucky, New York, Virginia, New Jersey and New Georgia. I’m sure I’m leaving some out.

These offerings are perfect – protein and vitamins, sugar-free and healthy. And very much appreciated.

 

Plus, the artwork goes on – see what her students are doing when asked to build paper structures.

 

12 January

A Word About Writers

by Jon Katz

Writers save us from isolation, from the corruption of invincibility. They set out to help people understand what they are too busy to study for themselves. They allow us to live in two worlds at once, our own private one and the larger world of the human community for whom we are also, like the good Samaritan, responsible.”

  • Joan Chittister,  Grace-filled moments with St. Joan.
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