Bedlam Farm Blog Journal by Jon Katz

28 February

Photo Journal: Birds In A Dark Rain And Windstorm

by Jon Katz

Until today, the birds have tended to disappear when I stopped outside with my nature camera. Today, I figured out how to do it. I sat in the car and drove it about 20 feet from the bird feeder. I turned off the engine, brought all the dogs inside, and just sat meditating, dozing a bit, thinking.

After 20 minutes – on the dot – the birds returned and started flying to the feeder we had just refilled. Suddenly, the birds paid no attention to me, and I could hold up my 400 mm lens, rest it on my shoulder, and sit patiently. Four or five small songbirds flew up and made themselves heard. I didn’t want to push my luck, and I also realized that I was distorting the photos by severely cropping them. A big lens like this will do that.

Interestingly, the camera picked up Maria hard at work on her fiber art. The birds didn’t seem to care. The wind is already severe, but the birds seem to fly through it. Zip hung around, trying to figure out what I was doing. I ignored him, and he got the message and ran away.

The wind has really picked up – severe weather alerts everywhere. Maria is going to her belly dancing class tonight. I’ll be right here writing about some things. Stay tuned. Here are some of the new bird photos. It’s dark and gloomy and spooky outside.

I got my new lens to zoom up and get this larger picture, but I need to figure out how. I’ll figure it out.

I enjoyed sitting in the car quietly, waiting for our birds to take their chances with me.

I missed a few big birds; I’ll get them tomorrow. I loved seeing Maria at work. Today was a breakthrough; I’ll figure it out tomorrow. I’m also thinking about the pictures of birds and nature I will try to take in the spring. I’m learning a lot now.

 

They were hiding from the wind.

 

 

28 February

Portrait/Still Life Gate Battle Rages On! I’ve Upset The Amherst Art History Department. They Blame Me For Trumpism And Climate Denial

by Jon Katz

I found the key to happiness. Surround yourself with animals and stay away from idiots..” — unknown.

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“Great art makes us stand back and admire…The art of a Vermeer or a Braque seeks not to amaze and appall but to invite the observer to come closer, to close with the painting, peer into it, and become intimate with it. Such art reinforces Human dignity” – Germaine Greer, The Obstacle Race (1979), P. 105.

Germaine Greer is an Australian writer, feminist, and intellectual. She spoke my mind above.

I pissed off a whole bunch of holier-than-though academics yesterday, so here’s my chance to do it again. A friend tells annoying people on her blog to “blow it out of their ass,” at first, it sounded rude to me, but it makes more sense every day.

Greer said it better than I did, but it’s precisely what I had in mind when I wrote that I was curious if my portrait of Maria the other day (below) was a portrait or part of still life. Could anyone clarify this for me? I wondered. I found a dozen different definitions online, almost all different.

Greer spoke my mind. I hoped to peer into the picture, become intimate with it,  and close with the picture in the way one might with a painting.

I seem to have a genius for annoying, stuffy, and rude pedantic people; I get along with almost everyone else. I might be too dumb; I’m not the one to say.

On the one hand, that’s a noble thing to keep in mind; on the other, it tells me a great deal about why so many young and rural people hate prestigious schools and the elites they seem to attract. I’ve never enjoyed being called stupid or ignorant, but I’m older and wiser now and can usually laugh it off.

I’m not sure I ever posted anything as personal or nonoffensive as my rumination about Maria and my art, particularly the things that connect still life with portraiture. It is only apparent to me if there are a few others. My photo was about love and creativity, not labels and official words. But this is America in 2024. Everything is a debate.

Of course, a still life’s literal and official definition is indeed a flower, vase, or inanimate object – duh. Do I care? Not really. No truth is absolute.

I was thinking about – and said pretty directly – that the portrait of Maria felt like a still life to me, and since so many people wrote to agree, I started considering the idea.  My ego danced.

This was a very personal, even intimate, observation about my feelings and love for Maria and the emotion of the photograph. I don’t have a PhD in art history or any history. That’s why I have to figure it out myself and should.

Aren’t teachers supposed to applaud that rather than call me names? I love learning about art and thinking about it.

The Maria picture is an emotional photograph to me, and I enjoyed thinking about it and reading about Johannes Vermeer since several people said the photo reminded them of him. I consider it one of my best pictures. I’ve never considered myself an artist, and it’s jarring sometimes.

This being social media, all kinds of strangers assumed this was their business, and I was surprised to learn I had caused a near meltdown at the Amherst, Mass, College Art History Department.

Jennifer Herdt, a Ph.D. professor, was the first to write to say I was wrong, and it was ignorant of me to suggest that a portrait could be anything but a portrait and a still life anything but a still life. Her message was presumptuous, unasked for, and annoying but almost civil and thoughtful. I disagreed with every word of it. It was dangerously wrong, it was said,  for me to try to define things that might conflict with the canon that the professor teaches. Nuts to that.

A high-ranked academic school as famed as Amherst (I spoke there on a book tour) might be expected to understand that I’m just doing my job as a writer when I raise questions and explore conventional wisdom. That’s what I do.

I wrote back to Dr. Peldt., which sparked another, nastier message from Ellen Waverly, who was shocked that I could question a Ph.D. professor’s opinions. I told her that Maria has a master’s degree in art, and she liked what I wrote, but I was told that she could not possibly carry the weight and wisdom of a Ph.D. professor. This is a master class in elitism.

This is another lesson in why so many rural people hate elite schools. They really do think we are all stupid. I had an awful thought – could Ron DeSantis have a point about colleges?- but I quickly recovered. No, he doesn’t.

(Portrait of Maria.)

But a lot of his followers think so. It wasn’t debatable, she said; a still life is a still life, and a portrait was a portrait. I was showing my ignorance and encouraging it in others.

But the squawk was getting underway. And I must be honest: I love trying to take the air out of windbags.

Ellen Waverly, a student or friend of Herts, jumped in and decided to stop pretending and be openly offensive, with no subtlety:

Jon, your attitude is part of our political mess now. You, like anti-vax folk and COVID deniers, are pleased to ignore experts in a field and make up your own “facts.” Suddenly Maria, who doesn’t have a PhD., is as much of an authority as an Amherst professor? You think it’s a sign of free thinking to challenge authority. I have news for you—so do Trump’s most fervent supporters. Don’t like the implications of climate change? No problem! Just make up your data because that’s what all the smart kids are doing. Your photo is not a still life. Vermeer never painted a still life. Why not take the note from an actual authority and move on instead of insulting her and looking like an ass.”

I’m sorry we can’t agree, Ellen; it is most certainly a sign of free thinking to challenge authority.  It is a sign of fascism to prohibit any challenge to authority.

Call me a happy ass.

That’s how the country was formed. I’m afraid I’m not responsible for the Trump nightmare or climate change; it’s a little more complex than that,  and I never said or suggested that Vermeer painted a still life, although he has inspired mine in a couple of different ways. Being extreme is not a way to fight extremism; I found your message way over the top. I respect experts in any field – I am grateful for every vaccine and boost for COVID-19 and have gotten all of them. Trump is a living nightmare, and your cheap link is…well, cheap.

I have news for you, Ellen. Prestige colleges are in trouble, not just from political extremists. You all need to be more in touch with the modern world and younger people’s real lives and needs. This is not one of the seminal issues of modern times, and no, I will never bow to people who tell me they have all of the answers. Nobody does.

This is the challenge of open thought on the Internet: it’s still free, but you may have to fight for the freedom to write what you want. I’m happy to take up that challenge. I am grateful to be freeer to examine my art and life than an Amherst art student.

 

(I’ll dare to repeat it. This photo, one of my best, evokes the feeling of Vermeer and still life painting for me. I don’t care what the professors think.)

So, what do I take from all this? Engaging in name-calling with rude, knee-jerk, or pompous people is pointless.  But sometimes it’s important. I was a college professor at NYU for five years, and if I had ever told my students that what I said was not debatable, I would have run out of the building.

I am almost embarrassed to write about this; it seems ridiculous (does no one have better things to fight about?); it brings back my dread memories of faculty meetings where grown women and I fight endlessly about nothing. They drove me out of teaching.

What are we arguing about, and why is it necessary to call me all of these Middle School names? I would hope for better at a college like Amherst.

I always wanted my daughter to consider going there, but she chose Yale. I doubt a single professor there would argue that their statements were not even debatable.  I don’t wish to live in Putin’s nation or take art classes at Amherst.

27 February

Flower Art, 2024. New Flowers To Share, My Color And Light For Tomorrow, And Then Some

by Jon Katz

I couldn’t do much today, but I got down to the florist and picked up a few new flowers along with the Irises; they are called Alstroemeria. The Cambridge Flower Shop is a blessing.

When I am taking pictures of flowers, my whole body responds; my heart seems moving up in my chest, I’m transformed, and spirits take me over.

I’m not sure what is happening, but it is powerful, and I am grateful for it. I’m back to Flower Art, and please feel free to come along for the right.

It was breezy, warm, and beautiful today. Spring might be a couple of months away, but it showed itself today, a tease, maybe. Sue is getting good at steering me to the right flowers.

I tried the monochrome on the Irises.

I appreciate the softness of the Leica.

 

I always look for the sun behind the flowers I am trying to photograph. Irises are great for that.

Another soul of a flower.

 

The Leica once again for softness.

 

27 February

Portrait, Beautiful Maria. Is This A Still Life? Or A Portrait? Where’s Vermeer? Oh, He’s Long Dead.

by Jon Katz

One of the most exciting things about social media is that every time you post anything, someone somewhere has a correction or complaint about it. I understand now that this is simply a part of the process, and I accept it. It took me a long time.

People always try to correct me, telling me what to write and how to feel. It happens so often that it feels comfortable. I hardly ever get corrections from regular readers, just about everyone else.

I’ve had corrections from as far away as Singapore, Mexico, Australia, Poland, England, Ireland, and Iceland. I’m famous for my real and alleged mistakes, if nothing else.

I do make mistakes; I write a lot daily, and I am my own editor; God help us. Early on, I decided to spend my time writing, not re-writing. I even bought a hot proofreading software to limit typos. It is worse than I am. I get to defend not only my mistakes but also presumptuous software.

Today’s “correction” was exciting and got me thinking, as often happens. Are my photos of Maria “still lifes” or “portraits?”

The latest squawk came from Donald Ramsey, a social media corrector. You can tell the correctors from the complainers because they never comment on the post or the photo; they offer a correction and move on and are never heard from again.

Sometimes, they are correct, but most often, they are not. I can’t take strangers on social media corrections too seriously. I always wonder if they have anything else to do. Clearly not.

Mr Ramsey raised one of those teacher, academic, and busybody corrections yesterday after I posted a shot of Maria sitting in her chair blogging. ( below). I called it a still life. It was a groundbreaking photograph for me; it wasn’t about Maria but what Maria stands for.

Donald said I made a mistake: “That’s not a still life,” he wrote, “a still life is always an arrangement of objects. It’s a portrait.” This was not a thought or question but an absolute statement of fact.

Like many correctors, his message was brief and bloodless.

It is an interesting observation, given that it’s wrong, as amateur correctors (and Dyslexic writers) often are.

Now that my photography is verging on art, I should look into it.  I love the picture, and I am expanding my idea of what a still-life picture is. It isn’t just a bowl of fruit for me.

I think of some of my pictures as photo paintings, a mix of styles. Three people messaged me to say the photograph reminded them of a Vermeer painting. He died in 1675.  I love those kinds of messages.

I often urge people to start their blogs and be authentic. But I also tell them to be prepared to define themselves and their identity and be willing to fight for it. A lot of people are out there hoping to take it away. Writing online has given me an elephant’s hide, my thin skin is getting armor.

My truth is more straightforward than Mr. Ramsey’s: no one word covers any form of art all the time.  Every artist I know has ideas of what they hope to do. Each one is different.

It is not for me to dictate such labels to them; I am hardly humble or shy, but I don’t have the arrogance to do that. They get to do that.

(Above, I call it a “Still Life.”)

My pictures of Maria – “the Blogger series” – are not generally a still life. Or is it? Well, it depends. Donald is black and white in his view, but the artist world is more nuanced than that.

I like Wikipedia’s definition: “A still life is a work of art depicting mostly inanimate subject matter, typically commonplace objects which are either natural or human-made. Wikipedia

The keywords for me are “mostly inanimate,” and “symbol.”

The still-life genre has remained popular due to its freedom of experimentation; it allows artists to explore different techniques, styles, and themes. There are four main types of still-life art: Flower Pieces, Banquet or Breakfast Pieces, Animal Pieces, and Symbolic Paintings.

Keywords: “explore..styles and themes.”

A still life is often (at least traditionally) an inanimate object, although some still lifes can be portraits ( Vermeer), and some are still lives (Vermeer).

It depends on what the artist is thinking and feeling when the image is created. There was no photography when Vermeer painted, yet he has inspired several of my photos – the one of Maria in particular. Out of curiousity, I wonder if anyone wrote him to tell him his definition of his work was wrong.

This doesn’t mean I’m comparing myself to him.

But Maria’s pictures are symbols to me – of love, art, and Maria’s remarkable gift of concentration and self. Sitting and blogging in her chair, she seems iconic, timeless, and bigger than life: a presence, not just any person. Not just Maria. Her face and body are full of emotion; she is wonderfully expressive.

(Above, Johannes Vermeer, “The Milkmaid.”)

The photo I posted of her today is not a still life; it’s a portrait. She is turning to the camera, and very much in motion, very different than the shot of her blogging. Her face says it all. You can’t really see her face in the other picture.

I can’t imagine sending a message to any artist like Mr. Ramsey sent to me; I have no right to do that, and art, for me, is not about what teachers teach but what I feel and see. All of my photography is personal and usually emotional. It’s about freedom. If I told Maria her quilts were not fiber art  or true quilts, I would lose some teeth.

Art has changed radically recently; the old dogma and assumptions are up for grabs. It’s the essence of old fartism to look at a creation and insist on what the artist must call it.

Creativity and change are critical elements of my idea of art.

So the point is that my portrait of Maria yesterday is a “still life” for me, and who matters here? Me or Mr. Ramsey. Maria, an artist,  gets a vote, and she says it is a still life as I want it to be and sees it that way.

Writing openly and honestly on the Internet is a challenge; it makes one a target for people worldwide. This is a new reality for people who wish to create freely and openly. I’m not going anywhere, not yet.

I’m learning to think rather than snarl. It feels better.

Counting Facebook, billions of people might see one of my blog posts at any given time. I have yet to learn who most are, and most have no idea who I am. I admit it is fascinating to come to terms with this new reality. Correctors, like trolls, are everywhere in every culture. It is a part of being human.

For most of human history, it was not possible to talk to strangers across the oceans. Now it’s impossible to shut people up. History will have to tell us if this is a good or bad thing.

The challenge is for a writer or artist to create their own identity, stick to it, and defend it. This has undoubtedly been good for me because, before social media, I didn’t know who I was or wanted to be.

That’s no longer a problem for me; thanks to messages I get daily from people like Mr. Ramsey, I  know exactly who I am.

27 February

Lessons Of Life: Worrying Accomplishes Absolutely Nothing

by Jon Katz

I’m enjoying my Iris flowers from Sue at the Cambridge Flower Shop as they open and grow. I took each camera – the Leica, the iPhone, the Monochrome, and the SLR- and experimented with photos. It was exciting.

I’m housebound today because of my foot, but I will have fun with these photos. I can go outside this afternoon, it’s almost warm and beautiful.

I am keenly aware of suffering worldwide and fear in our own country about Frankenstein’s revenge. Millions of people will learn Dr. Frankenstein’s lessons this year, which is sad and troubling. You made him; you have to live with him.

I’ve got my worrying under control. I worry, but it no longer paralyzes me.

I try my best to do good and help when I can, and I practice breathing, walking, mindful meditation, and thoughtfulness; they all help.

Every day, I’m more and more able to find peace in my heart. Worrying, I have realized, does not accomplish anything, make me feel better or good about myself, or change the world around me.

If I worried 100 times more, it would not make the world better in any way. There is no point to it. The more anxious we are, the worse everything around us will be, including us.

I choose to be happy and at peace, even though things are not what I want.

I am comforted by the idea that I am doing my best to be a worthwhile human and will continue to do my best for as long as I can in the best way I can. I hate to think of my life if I didn’t know about breathing, meditating, being grateful for every moment, and for life and compassion.

Without that, I would never be able to do good or help a soul, including me. Worrying is a waste of time.

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