8 April

Then, They Came For The Ponies

by Jon Katz
Then, They Came For The Ponies
Then, They Came For The Ponies

The messages come to me almost every day now, sometimes in letters to my Post Office Box (Box 205, Cambridge, N.Y., 12816), sometimes through Facebook, sometimes in e-mail.  Sometimes, the messages are about the elephants they are banning from the circus, one was about rabbits stolen by people who said they were for animal rights.They did not think rabbits should be sold for meat – the stolen rabbit’s 10 abandoned babies slowly starved to death. They shut down a petting zoo in a mall in Missouri because they said it was cruel to have petting zoos with goat and sheep and alpacas,  and in North Carolina; a small traveling fair was forced to sell a baby elephant after protestors claimed it was abusive for her to be working.

One newspaper clip from Minneapolis told of an organic farmer who is being picketed, his work banned from food markets because he sold cheese from his goat. Animal rights groups across America, perhaps encouraged by the effort to ban the carriage horses in New York,  are seeking to ban carriage horses in a number of cities, including Cincinnati and Chicago. They are also seeking to ban pony and donkey rides in a number of county fairs and many animals from circuses. I suppose it was inevitable that they would come for the ponies.

Yesterday, one letter came that pierced my heart,  a letter from Dana, a ll-year-old girl in Santa Monica. She said she had been up much of the night crying because they are trying to ban the pony rides in the Farmer’s Market in Santa Monica, California. Dana rides them as often as her allowance permits, she says, she has learned a lot about animals from them. “I am writing this so you will write about this and help us save the ponies,” she said, “my mother says you are writing about the horses in New York. Please, please, please, help us save the ponies.”

Dana enclosed a clipping from the Santa Monica Daily Press from April 2 describing a campaign by a former congressional candidate, Marcy Winograd, who told the paper that she is gathering signatures on a petition to ban the ponies. “We do not want to pray on the most vulnerable population, children, by teaching them that it’s OK to abuse animals,” she said in an interview. “I’m sorry, but when you have ponies walking for hours around in circles, tethered to a pole, next to loud music and lots of commotion, that, in my opinion, is abuse.”

Winograd demonstrated two things to me in her comments, she knows nothing about abuse and even less about animals. She reminds me of the comments of New York’s mayor about the carriage horses there.  Animal abuse is a criminal offense; it is a legal term that defines abuse as the willful affliction of pain and suffering on helpless animals, used in cases of starvation, savage beatings, exposure, and other neglect that results in serious injury or death. It is not an opinion or an argument, abuse does not in any way morally or legally apply to Winograd’s notion of how a pony should live, or to a pony giving rides to children.

Abuse is an important concept; it is the way in which we can actually protect animals, it is losing it’s meaning it is  so incorrectly and wantonly invoked. Increasingly, it is being unfairly and inaccurately invoked as an excuse for removing more and more animals from our midst. They do  not ever return.

Secondly, Winograd reveals what is a familiar strain in the debates about the New York carriage horses, an almost total ignorance of animals, what they like and how they really live. Domesticated animals like ponies, working horses, dogs – even some circus animals – love to be with people and work with them, it is what they are bred for, trained for, what they have done for hundreds, if not thousands of years.

There is nothing abusive to a pony about walking in circles; it is more stimulating, invigorating and healthy for them than standing still in the corral for hours eating and dropping manure. There is no evidence of any kind that music is disturbing to animals or unhealthy for them; it is, in fact, often piped into stables and veterinary clinics to calm and soothe them. Working animals love to work, and they love attention, and anyone who has seen a donkey or pony or horse with children can see the powerful connection that often occurs, the rich experience for children of seeing an animal, of seeing what may be lost forever in this world.

My donkey Simon, who actually was abused – it is a crime for people to use the term so ignorantly – and nearly starved to death, loves to be around children, his ears go up, he nuzzles them, loves to be touched and brushed by them. Simon would love to give rides to children, I just never thought of it, he never tires of being around them, they never tire of being around him.

One parent told me it changed the life of her autistic son to kiss Simon on the nose and hold him for many minutes. It sure had me in tears. In a sane world, we will turn society upside down to find more ways for children to be around animals like ponies, donkeys or the very calm and accepting carriage horses of New York.

One of the richest experiences in my life with animals is seeing Simon,  this reborn animal, once near death, giving children the great gift of seeing how wonderful donkeys are, hardly any of them have ever seen one. Winograd seems to be drawing from the bizarre animal ideology advanced by the mayor of New York and his allies in the animal rights movement: the only proper place for domesticated animals are the farms of the wealthy or the struggling, overwhelmed and generally impoverished rescue preserves. They seem actually to believe it is abusive for working animals to work it is abusive for working animals to work.

Dana told me that she and her friends and their parents were fighting back.  I can see that this is true from the follow-up story in the Santa Monica Daily Press, which seems like a fair newspaper. Unlike the New York media for so many years, and for so many stories, the Santa Monica paper actually contacted the owner of the ponies to seek her comment. Things are changing, I see. The counterattack from the pony supporters was powerful and instantaneous.

The supporters quickly gathered more than twice as many signatures in favor of keeping the ponies as Winograd did to ban them. Winograd’s first demonstration drew only six people.  She is vowing to return this weekend, but there is a backlash to these campaigns. The most heartening statistics in the struggle in New York City are the recent poll results showing the people of New York want the horses to say by a three-to-one margin. The dynamic is changing; animals might get some rights after all – including the right to survive and remain in our communities and have meaningful work with human beings.

Tawni Angel, the owner of the ponies, said in an interview that 70 per cent of them – like the New York carriage horses –  are rescued animals, saved from slaughter at auction. They would be dead if they were not giving rides to kids.  She said the ponies live in five-acre pastures, and that her goal in offering the pony rides is, in part, to teach children about animals. “I can’t tell you how many times a kid has asked me what a chicken is,” she said. “The main reason I do this is for the kids. Where else are they going to see goats and alpacas? I’m not getting rich off this.”

In a ritual painfully familiar to the New York carriage horse owners and drives, Winograd dismissed Angel’s reasoned arguments out of hand, she brushed aside all of her comments and explanations, there is no dialogue or learning with much of this movement, it seems, they live and work in their own bubble. There is no discussion, no give-and-take, no negotiation. Not ever. Winograd  said petting zoos are abusive to animals as well.

“It’s hardly a family or “festival atmosphere,” she said “when small horses plod for hours in tiny circles, their heads bowed and tethered to a pole. What would we call it if human beings were forced to do this? We would call it torture.”

Personally, I would call it working in an Amazon warehouse. Unlike the employees there, the ponies get to move slowly, they work outdoors and have shade; they get frequent breaks, they don’t work every day, and are petted and loved by children all day.

In her comments, Winograd demonstrates, blessedly, that she knows as little about torture as she does about animals or abuse. I doubt people who are burned by cigarettes, have their fingernails pulled out,  have electric wires attached to their vaginal and genital areas, or are beaten to death or killed,  would compare their experience to being a pony riding children around in circles all day, or to a horse pulling a light carriage on flat ground. It is profoundly insensitive to the many sufferers of real torture in our world for the term to be used in this way, just as the term “abuse” is tossed around like confetti and has lost all real meaning to most people.

When I was in New York last week, I saw a hard-working Labrador working for the Amtrak Police. What, I wonder, would Winograd say about this big and beautiful Lab, spending all of his days listening to announcements on the loudspeaker, the constant rumble of trains, walking back and forth in circles all day through the vast waiting room, sniffing bags, head lowered, nose to the ground. If it is torture for ponies to ride children in circles, what would she say about the Lab in Penn Station?

The actor Alec Baldwin referred recently to the New York horse carriages as “torture wagons.” Steven Nislick, the millionnaire leader of NYClass, the group spearheading the move to ban the horses in New York, told an an interviewer that he believed the carriage horses would be “better off dead” than pulling carriages on New York.

I suppose if he is successful in his effort to shut down the carriage trade, we may sadly get to find out if this is so.

The true animal heroes in stories like this are not people like Winograd or Baldwin or Nislick, who seem to know nothing at all about animals and their welfare. If you think about it, they are the carriage trade owners and people like Tawni Angel, who keep animals in our world and give people, especially children, the opportunity to see and learn about animals and love them in a world increasingly disconnected from nature. Angels says she makes little or no money from her petting zoo and pony rides, and anyone who has been around farm animals, petting zoos or pony rides knows this is true. The money, she says, enables her to keep the animals on her farm, which she loves.

Doesn’t it seem that animal lovers and people who claim to support the rights of animals would applaud a person like this, rather than harass them and try and put them out of business, and put her ponies at risk? My understanding of animal love and animal lovers is that they – we-  want more animals in our world, not less, we seek to find ways to keep them among us, to improve their lives, not to banish them from our lives, where  they will never again be seen or known. Animals do not exist only to be rescued and pitied, we need a new and more mystical understanding of them.

The political pressure on politicians ought to be to find ways of keeping animals in urban areas, not taking them from us, closing down business, putting people who care for them out of work. If they can come for the ponies, they can come for you.

People who love animals rather than themselves – Tawni Angel comes readily to mind – always struggle for ways to live with them, pay for them, keep them among us. How wonderful that someone would take the trouble to give children access to ponies, I can hardly imagine a greater gift for them in their Instagram/PlayStation/CellPhone world. I would so prefer my daughter to take a pony ride than text all day long or stare at a screen.

Winograd does not understand any more than the animal rights activists in New York do that without people like Angel or the carriage grade people,  these ponies and horses would most likely be dead, removed from human experience and gone from the world and the sight and experience of children and adults.

Animals who work help the people who love them – just like Angel –  pay for them, not abuse them, and they get to stay alive.  People do not get rich keeping animals. One has only to look at the holocaust that has afflicted the animal world in the 21st century, animals without connections to people are mostly gone or perishing.

The real abuse is the idea that animals can only exist in shelters and rescue preserves and the farms of the rich. Tawni Angel is a true animal rights hero.

People who care about animals all around the country seem to be awakening to the implications of the misuse of abuse to remove animals from the world. In Santa Monica, the counterattack against Winograd and her petition was swift and strong. Supporters of animals and of the ponies learned from the mistakes of the New York carriage horse owners, who waited years to forcefully respond to the largely false accusations made against them. This hesitation made them appear guilty, allowed the accusations to grow and lodge in the public mind. They are now speaking up, and the public is rallying to them.
People in Santa Monica did not wait to respond.

And what of Dana, one of the children Marcy Winograd and the other animal rights activists demonstrating each week are trying to protect. We exchanged some e-mails, and she said none of the animal rights organizations seeking to ban the pony rides had talked to her or any of the other children she knows, all of whom love the ponies and very much want them to stay in the Farmer’s Market.

What,  I asked her, with her mother’s permission, is the lesson the pony rides are teaching her? Is it really how to abuse animals?

It took a few minutes for her to reply. “I love the ponies,” she said, “they teach us how to touch them gently, and pet them. I would never hurt one, they people there show me how to be nice. If you aren’t nice, you can’t ride them. I have learned that I love animals and I hope the ponies are always around for me to go and see. All of my friends feel the same way. We are all very sad that they are trying to take the ponies away. Where will I ever see one?”

4 January

Life Goes On. Weather As A Shared Experience. God And Cold Fingers.

by Jon Katz
Weather As A Shared Experience
Weather As A Shared Experience

When I first moved to upstate New York and wrote about the impressive winters here, it seemed exotic, it was new to me and people around the country were surprised by the very low temperatures and the howling blizzards that came roaring down from Canada, I got to dramatize the experience in several books – “Dogs Of Bedlam Farm,” and “Dog Days.” People in California and Florida and Texas could hardly imagine such weather and found it quite exotic, my border collie Rose became famous for her heroic efforts during lambing and some awful storms, I wrote about that in “Rose In A Storm,” a novel about a border collie left alone on a farm.

I remember my first encounter with -30 temperatures, how matter changed, I got frostbite, I had to wrap rubber hoses around my neck and crawl across sheets of ice on my hands and knees to get to the water tanks by the barn. I learned a lot about handling extreme weather, it is different now.

But so is the weather experience of almost everyone around me. I see that our experience of weather has changed in those relatively short years, everyone everywhere has experienced extreme and challenging weather, quite often much more intense than mine. Maria and I often joke that our region is now considered moderate, the hurricanes and big storms and tornadoes and heavy snowfalls go elsewhere, most often South of us to Boston or Philadelphia or New York City. Realtors here say people along the East coast have begun looking for homes here, there has been no serious damage from storms.

People in Minnesota and Iowa saw wind chills of  – 50 and – 60 last night, worse to come in the next few days. I get messages every day from people who have experienced tornadoes, drought, devastating rains and floods, and of course, the new superstorms, no longer a rarity but a common experience. More than 70 million Americans are experiencing the cold and snow from the storm the Weather Channel has named “Hercules,” and it is hardly the biggest storm of recent months.

Our new shared experience has become surreal. Many of the people who are running much of the country deny climate change, refuse to fund research and warning projects about storms, believe all-weather events are simply the work of God and that claims of environmental catastrophe would hurt profit margins and job growth. They might be right about one thing, in the Kabbalah God warns his people to take care of Mother Earth or he will send awful storms and floods and storms to punish them.

Rose’s exploits seemed heroic to me at the time, but not so unusual now – border collies in South Dakota risked their lives to try to save millions of cattle who perished in the awful superstorms of October, far worse than anything Rose and  I ever saw at Bedlam Farm.

The new story for me is the shared and sometimes beautiful but disturbing experience of invasive and increasingly powerful weather. We are all learning to pay attention to the weather, and even in our narcissistic culture, we are seeing that our individual experience is a shared experience, perhaps that is a silver lining amidst all of the suffering and dislocation of our weather. I asked people on my Facebook page this morning to list the temperatures in their communities last night, my -18 degrees was not impressive.

Some people shrug at this weather, no big deal, they are either comfortable in denial or happy to avoid the growing hysteria and alarm about weather. I am allergic to drama these days, but I am not ho-hum about the weather. Our shared experience is a powerful one – my animals are suffering in this kind of cold, and so are we – and I am going to write more about the weather. I am also listening to God, too, along with the Washington politicians who believe science is just a hoax. God isn’t tell me that there is no such thing as climate change, he is telling me and my cold and aching fingers that his Mother Earth is weeping and crying out to us, and Hercules is another angel come to speak to me, and all of us, and  that is a message I am hearing.

 

 

29 July

The Real World. Jenna’s Farm, My Farm, My Life: What Is Help?

by Jon Katz
Jenna And Merlin
Jenna And Merlin

I love Jenna Woginrich, the person and the idea, she is a good friend, a neighbor, gifted writer, blogger, farmer, a passionate and articulate advocate for homesteading, farming, the meaningful and independent life in the midst of the soul-sucking Corporate Coup that has become much of life in America. Last night, I got a call from a friend of both of ours who was nearly in tears, alarmed at a post Jenna had published on her blog saying someone had come to repossess her truck and she had published a desperate plea for people to help her by sending money and supporting her efforts to keep her farm.

Jenna has published numerous calls for help on the blog, talking openly about her troubles meeting her mortgage, paying for her truck.  She asked for and received help in building a mews for the hawk she hopes to acquire as part of her interest in falconry, friends came to help her build an expanded pig pen and she has repeatedly for financial assistance – contributions, workshop attendance, the sale of  pigs, chickens, produce, personal belongs and recently, subscriptions –  in keeping Cold Antler Farm  going.  Jenna lives near Bedlam Farm, we are part of a community, around here we worry about each other and there has been some discussion about her repeated alarms. She has many people who care about her.

But this piece is about me, truthfully, not only about Jenna.

When I woke up, I went to Jenna’s blog and saw the wrenching – to me – message she had published. I know what panic feels like and reads like.  I checked on her Facebook page and saw the expected messages from the people I call the “go girls” and “Amen Charlies,” telling her how amazing she was, how brave and authentic and inspiring.  I gather other, less supportive messages had been taken down.

It seems that one of the difficult symbols and issues in Jenna’s life is her horse Merlin, who she loves dearly and has kept at considerable expense. She can’t give him up, she wrote, because if her truck is repossessed, she will need him to ride around town. Merlin is important to Jenna, I see how much he means to her. I would not easily give up the animals I have, they can be so essential to our emotional lives. It is not for me or anybody else to tell Jenna whether she needs to keep her horse or not, and shame on her for arguing the decisions of her life in public. Whether she can afford him or not is a personal issue, not one for me.

I called Jenna this morning and asked how I could help. I told her I wanted to write about this, as she had been so open about it. and it raised so many issues that were personal to me. I said I was available if she need to talk to me.  After we talked, I saw that her original posting had been taken down and another published in it’s place, explaining that she was figuring things out,  giving up her karate lessons and considering selling one of her horses.  In a signature Jenna declaration, she wrote “I refuse to give up Cold Antler,” she wrote, “I refuse to give in,” all sorts of healing was on the way. It was all good, said Jenna, a wake-up call.  It was disturbing to me, as if every decision about life was a life-or-death drama involving submission and surrender.

I saw that for Jenna, every problem, every setback, every unpaid bill,  has become a declaration of purpose and faith, a test of strength and endurance. I see that people admire declarations of faith and determination, they always seem heroic, there were a lot of admiring messages on Facebook.

Jenna must solve the riddles of her own life, she is responsible for it. I am writing this because I need to work this issue of help  for myself, to write it for me and for others who struggle with issues relating to help – how to be helped, how to help. Jenna is not asking me for help, doesn’t seem to want any. I respect that, of course.

I have always identified with Jenna in many ways, even though we are very different.  I am not a farmer, but a writer who lives on a farm. But I walked through this fire, the fear and panic and confusion still goes through me like a knife, it is a communicable disease, even though I am on the other side of it.  A meaningful life in America is frightening, difficult, confusing, expensive. A hard thing to go off and get a farm and try and keep it. Thoreau would not have lasted a month in our time in his woods. There is, in fact,  something heroic about Jenna, she is astonishingly creative and resourceful.

I want to be clear that I am not writing this to raise money for Jenna, those are individual decisions for people to make. I cannot help her in that way, won’t. We all have to put our notions of life to the test. My own were dragged through the woods by angry Stallions, pieces of them left for scavengers to pick at slowly and painfully. I will never get over it, I will never forget it. That, I suppose is also why I am writing this.

In the somewhat inverted world of the Internet, doing things you can’t quite handle are seen as admirable, not reckless, brave, not immature or foolhardy. Perhaps this is because the rest of our world is so fearful and enslaved we all root for those few who breakout, I know I do. Jenna wrote on her blog this morning that after her first message enough people sent her money that she has some breathing room, the farm can stay alive for a bit. So, I thought, the message worked for her. Everything is okay for today.

I remember those messages of affirmation, I used to get them all the time. People said I was christic, noble, brave. They admired me when I bought things I could not afford, cheered me on when I gave all of my money away to people who took advantage of me, lived from one delusion to the next, rationalized getting everything I wanted. I was constantly declaring that I was fine, I was okay, I got, I was changing. I was not fine, I was not okay, I did not get it, I was not changing. When I did changed, it was long and hard, it is still happening.

This is what I learned, this is what I would tell Jenna if she ever asks or anyone else if they ask (they often do):

The people who cheered while I spent money – helped me spend money –  were not my friends. The people who enabled me were not helping me. The people who I thought would rescue me did not help me. The people who told me how brave and wonderful I was were my partners in delusion, no one ever told me that I could not buy things I could not afford, I could not live a life of fantasy. I lurched from crisis to crisis, drama to drama. It was always okay, it was always going to be all right. In AA, they call it alcoholic thinking. There is always a good reason to take a drink. There are always people whose lives are so filled with holes they fill them with the lives of others. The Internet is a blessing and a poison in that way, it brings support and reinforces just about anything.

And then one way the glass shattered for me.  It was around time of the divorce, when the  good woman who had helped enable me for years was gone and I found myself wandering in a life that was not mine, that I could not afford, that was not in reality, that was not brave or noble, that I could not sustain, that I did not understand. I was always discovering how the banks really worked, how bills really had to be paid, it was always the fault of the system,  I was always surprised how it worked, the corporate SOB’s, the greedy bastards. I never seemed to get what was happening to me, it was never my fault, I took responsibility for nothing. Blessedly, this all unraveled like a skein of yard in a tornado. It was the end of a life, the beginning of a life.

I think I understand better what help is now. Help is not giving people money, unless they are poor, sick or helpless. Help is not about doing things for me that I can not afford to do myself. Help is not about doing things for free. My good friend Jack Macmilian is always here to help me figure out problems on my new farm, to replace tires, salvage trees. He always gives me a bill when it costs him time or money, I always take it and pay it. That is help. I don’t want it for free, never again will I confuse that with love.

I do not listen to the “go, girls,” and the “Amen Charlies.” I pay attention to challenge and criticism, I always make room for it.   I love praise and affirmation, but people who do not know the details of another person’s life are not helping when they offer blind support and assistance. I can’t speak for Jenna, but for me, it kept me crazy and in pain and fear for years. The people who finally helped me the most, the real friends, the real angels, were the ones who told me the truth: you can’t acquire things you can’t pay for,  you can’t live a life of denial, you can’t live in delusion and self-interest, you cannot ask other people to pay for your life, bail you out of your own misery and trouble. I went and got some real help – from therapists, spiritual counselors, a partner and lover who spared me nothing when it came to challenging me and calling me on my own endless rationalizations and self-justifications.

This morning, I woke up thinking of my friend Jenna. “This is disturbing” I said to Maria. “I need to help her.”

Maria looked at me with that hard look I have come to know. “You are thinking of giving her money, aren’t you?”

But i met her eye and answered her in a way that surprised her.  One of the things I learned about love is that people who love you often tell you what you do not want to hear, they love you enough to make you angry and uncomfortable, to force you to drop the delusions and face the world, the truth about who you are. “No,”I said, “I am  not there anymore. I need to write about it, for me.  I will tell her I am here if and when is ready to talk honestly about her life and I can share with her what I have learned. To help her get help if she wants or needs it. I need to tell her that.”

So I did. I felt that old flash of drama, that pull, I went for a walk, it is gone. I am back to myself.

I love where I am in life, but one of the curses of aging is that you have learned things that so many people simply don’t want to know.

And this is the curse of being young. It is not a time to be cautious or wise, but to go get your farm and fight to keep it. Cautious and wise people don’t do that. I pray every day that Jenna keeps Cold Antler Farm. And I know I care for her because I will tell her my truth, not just cheer for hers.

 

31 October

This Is Our Place: The Meaningful Life

by Jon Katz
This Is Our Place: A Meaningful Life

Nearly six months ago, I brought a friend over to Florence Walrath’s house to see the old farmhouse and meet Rocky, the blind pony who led us here. My friend recalls that I turned to her as she was ready to leave, and I said “this is our place. We are going to live here.” I remember that moment, it was just after it became clear to Maria and I that we both loved this small farm and wished to live here, to make it our place, and not just my place, as Bedlam Farm was. Somehow, this pony, a magical helper in the tradition of the hero journey, led us to this.

We were warned and cautioned against buying another home until our existing home sold, but there were many reasons in my mind for us to move then. The house was right for us, it was where we wanted to be, we loved it in the same way I had loved Bedlam Farm when I bought it. The house might not still be on the market, and things can happen – look at  Sandy. So we bought it, and we decided to move ahead with this decision. It was the right road but not a smooth road in many ways. All kinds of financial, legal, practical issues. Things like buying homes have become complex in modern-day America.

I will not lie about it, it was a grueling period. The move shaped my life every single day. Dealing with the details of financing, preparing Bedlam Farm, deciding what we needed to do to bring the animals and us here. There were so many complex decisions – dozens of daily decisions – about barns, fencing, plumbing, electricity, sills and rafters, floor beams and attack supports, bathroom fixtures and aging wallpaper. I did things I have never done, learned things I did not know, was challenged in ways I had never been challenged and not imagined. This whole process was one I would have avoided or delegated for much of my life, and in embracing it rather than fleeing it, I became more whole. I am learning to live in the world, every single day.

We came here almost every night to clean, scrape, paint. We drove back and forth several times a day, every day for months. We have not had a day off since last Spring, yet we have loved every single day. Magical helpers always appear if you let them, and Ben Osterhaudt was an angel, building and repairing barns, helping us move, hammering and sawing away at the dozens of things the house needed – stuck windows, swollen doors, frayed wires.

I am drained, exhilarated, unnerved.  I need to figure out a way to return to normal life, a life without a thousand decisions and crises and hours of driving and hauling ever day. We spent all of the money we had, and we face the cost of maintaining two homes. If all the experts are correct, I am not prepared for the next stage of my life. I must be doing something right.

I do not regret it., not for a second, even if it frightens me sometimes. This is our place, it was meant to be. We did it well, thoughtfully, lovingly. We are closer than ever. This perhaps, is a staple of the meaningful life. Taking risks, moving forward, facing obstacles. We made few, if any mistakes. We were together every step of the way. It feels as if this home has been waiting for us. Apart from Mother, who remains missing, the animals have all adjusted into their new routines and rythyms. We have new chores, and we will do them together, they still frame our day.

I am never certain about the things I do, I simply have learned to make my decisions and live with them. This is one I will literally be living with, hopefully through the end of my life. And seeing my beaming wife sewing in her stylish new studio, I remember that day, that call to life, that voice – mine – saying with authority and determination, this is our place, we are going to live here.

So it is. A fairy tale, a parable of life, a life that led me to this.

Bedlam Farm