Bedlam Farm Blog Journal by Jon Katz

17 February

Bird Meditation, In A Storm

by Jon Katz

 

Photographing birds through a window in a rainstorm with no bright light was and is a challenge for me. I call it the morning meditation with birds in a storm.

The birds move faster than my camera settings so far, but I love the way it looks. Birds in a storm have a special attitude, I think; every move is precious. It takes a lot of patience and a lot of luck. I do love a challenge

It is curiously calming and even soothing. It’s a sacred art of the morning. I went out to clean off the car, and I’m not going out again. We didn’t get a lot of snow or wind, just light snow and ice and frozen things. I miss Spring.

 

 

 

 

The Raven sneaks into the photo, as always.

 

16 February

Chronicles Of Zip: Sunday Afternoon: Before The Storm. The White Hen Has A New Friend.

by Jon Katz

If the storm turns out to be less than advertised, I’ll be blogging away. If not, this may be goodbye until Tuesday. I could do a lot of thinking and meditation then. If I had to bet, I’d say the storm will be another storm.

Zip, as always, noses himself into the life of the farm. He misses nothing, checks out everything, and then shocks me with the big heart inside of him.

Zip surprises me with his intelligence, heart, and intense curiosity. He has to know what’s happening, he has a genis for posing. When he came to the farm, he chased the White Hen everywhere, away from anything he might think of as food.

He always manages to get himself into the picture. Today, it was different. He got himself into the White Hen’s stall.

This week, as the White Hen struggles to stay alive, Zip wants to visit, understand, and – I think – protect her. He shows up occasionally and even hops into her stall to listen to and sit with her. I can’t account for or explain this; I wouldn’t dare to try.

She talks to Maria; she talks to Zip.

Zip is a ham, but he also has something more profound and generous in him. He and the White Hen are friends. The other hens have rejected her, and she vanished for five days and returned nearly dead. She is at ease with him; she always used to run and hide from him.  She trusts him now.

He is watching out for her, and she is glad to see him. Maria took this photo today at my request. I cannot go outside much until the ice is gone and the storm is past, and Maria does it beautifully.

The Winter Pasture.

 

Sheep in the snow and ice.

Something to keep people warm. Beauty is everywhere; I am always learning to look for it. I am so glad I have a camera like this again.

16 February

Flower Art: Art And Suffering – Beauty Heals The Soul, Keeps Me Warm

by Jon Katz

The highest form of wisdom is kindness.” – The Talmud.

Our lives no longer belong to us alone; they belong to all those who need us desperately.” – Elie Wiesel.

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A work of art, an act of love, has always helped me understand the nature of suffering and anxiety and a way towards healing.  Kindness is an art, a shortcut to happiness. And for me, art is kindness.

Anger is poison spelled differently.

It’s not that I’m better than anyone else, just that I want to get better than me.

Blogging and photography, in particular, have helped me develop some insight into transforming my pain and anger into developing the better parts of me.

Writing, blogging, photography, painting, weaving, sewing, kindness, helping people experiencing poverty, and meditation can all be acts of love. They heal and make us better humans.

The person who believes anger and power will heal the broken parts of themselves misses the point.  Those things are corrosive; they rot the soul. They feasted on mine.

Art, love, giving, and helping can all be acts of love, as is art for Maria and me.

 

Kindness and generosity have nourished me and others, which lifts my soul. They have healed me and helped me live the life I want to live.

Happiness is not an accident; when I am happy, I learn how to live more and more of my life profoundly and with meaning.

Spirituality can do this for me, but anger and judgment cannot. There is nothing for me to listen to hatred and judgment. With meaning comes joy and compassion; with joy and compassion comes meaning.

I’m learning that I don’t need to respond to hatred and cruelty with hatred and cruelty. I don’t choose to live that way.

Love and empathy strengthen the soul, and hate and cruelty destroy us in time as they almost did me. That’s the point of spirituality in our time. Hatred gets me nothing. Love and kindness – and art, indeed –  always bring reward for me.

The flowers tell the story. Whenever I take a photo I like (or anyone does), I feel like a better person than I was. I’m giving something out to the world that helps me and others.

The mystical Kabbalah, a central component of Jewish mystical thought, says love and kindness are gifts from God, who tells his followers that it is a crime to waste this gift or the gift of creativity, which the Kabbalah calls “the creative spark.”

Everyone is given these gifts of love and kindness; Disregarding them, says God,  is a sin to be punished. “First mend yourself,” says the Kabbalah, “then mend others. He that can’t endure the bad, will not live to see the good.”

In the Kabbalah, God says that when I hurt another human, I kill a part of me. That’s how it was meant to be.

 

 

 

 

 

16 February

Big Storm On The Way. Generator Is Out And Ready, Power Likely To Go Out Tonight Or Tomorrow. Maria Is Having Fun. I Get Anxious In Big Storms..

by Jon Katz

We’re experiencing a significant and long-lasting snow and ice storm and a heavy windstorm. The electric company says we should expect a power outage during this storm, and the trees are already bending with ice and snow. (The White Hen is fine.) When the snow gets too high, Bud has a new observation spot – he hops up and holds court on a fence post.

I sent out the pantry requests first, but I’ll likely be offline for at least part of Monday, if not longer. Maria sent the generator so the refrigerator, heating, and lighting systems would work, but we will be without Internet connections if that happens. I’m deep into two books, but I’ll try to post a few flower photos if I have time. Stay warm and dry.

 

Maria loves the snow and cold and walks in the woods with Zinnia and Fate. Bless her, and bless me. Maria smiles and sings to the animals while shoveling out the feeders.

 

Birds seem to know when a storm is coming. They flock and carry seeds up into the trees to save for later.

 Maria talking to Asher

I love my morning Bird Watch,  perfect meditation partners.

Maria hauled the generator out of the barn but had trouble starting it. We had a little problem—the gas been idle for a long time—but our savior, Mike Conklin, came over to start it. When there is a power outage, we adjust.

We will have heat, refrigeration, light for reading, warming fuel, a cooking stove, and two wood stoves burning at full speed. We are getting wise about preparation. We used to pay little attention to the weather; storms were a part of life.

But the storms are getting bigger, lasting longer, and being much more destructive. We don’t laugh anymore. Mother Nature is trying to get our attention—she has ours.

We have been fortunate, and we know it. Thank God we got the septic and roof fixwd earlier in the year.

I am fortunate to have Maria as my wife and partner. We are ready.

16 February

Storm Food, Cambridge Pantry: Salad Dressing, Plus Size 4 Diapers And Kids’s Shampoo

by Jon Katz

Today, we’re bracing for a big story; power outage, they say, is very likely. I wanted to get the pantry requests in before we lost power. First things first.

This morning, Sarah requested salad dressings (very inexpensive) and size four diapers. The urgent item for the day is Kid’s Shampoo:

Please browse the Cambridge Food Pantry Amazon Wish List; all items are urgently needed or off the shelves. The pantry showings draw big crowds, and much stuff is off the shelves.   Families stuck in small apartments, some in motels.

People can’t get to the supermarkets. A brutal storm is predicted tonight, and higher heat, oil bills, and power outages are expected. Many of you are adding your own choices. Thank you!

Sarah’s requests:

Happy Belly  Thousand Island Dressings, Thousand Island Dressing, 16 fl oz, $1.99.

Kraft Salad Dressing, Balsamic Vinaigrette, 16. Oz, $2.67.

Creamy French Salad Dressing (16 fl oz Bottle), $2.67.

Hello Bello Baby Diapers, Size 4 21 Count of Disposable, Snuf and Confirt Fit Hypoallergenic $10.99.

 

Then, the urgent request of the day:

Suace Kids Minions 3-In-1 Shampoo Conditioner, and Body Wash, for Tear-Free and Gentle Cleansing, 28 oz (Pack of 4), $23.92.

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