Bedlam Farm Blog Journal by Jon Katz

25 March

Do Sheep Know When Other Sheep Die? What Do We Know And Not Know?

by Jon Katz

In the past two weeks, we’ve had two sheep die, and I had a chance to pay close attention again to how sheep react to the death of other members of the flock.

Since being on the farm, I’ve observed this a score of times. I am still determining what animals think.

This subject is complex, and there needs to be more consensus among biologists, vets, researchers, and animal lovers. Most of the people I know with animals insist that their animals think, communicate with humans, and grieve in human ways.

I’ve never seen an animal grieve in human ways.

I see animals who get upset and confused when a community member is sick or dies. But I’ve seen no evidence that animals are aware of their mortality or the mortality of other animals, or that they understand or fear certain death.

They know when they are sick and when other animals are gone, but that’s as far as I’ve seen it go. A dog doesn’t know the difference between a pack mate going to the vet or dying and never returning.

They are creatures of tradition and continuity, as are sheep, but in my experience, they quickly recover, reorganize, and return to eating and their new rituals of behavior.

The need for clarification is understanding what is thought and what is instinct. Most animals live by instinct, not thought.

I feel we know less than we think about animals, what they are thinking, and how most of them grieve or mourn if they do. I can tell what my animals are feeling but not what they are thinking. They aren’t human and don’t have our vocabulary or knowledge of history and patterns.

I’ve heard all those stories about border collies spending years at train stations or gates waiting for their dead humans to return. I’ve had four or five border collies die on my watch, and I’ve never seen one grieve for a lost companion or kennel mate. They get upset when their familiar rituals change.

Every border collie I know who lost a human recovered when they had more sheep to herd.

Of the hundreds of thousands of dogs rescued from Hurricane Katrina, I don’t know of one who died of loneliness or separation anxiety. They were content once they figured out who their new bosses were, the new rules, where they lived, and who would feed them.

Those are the dogs I know. Zinnia will miss me until someone gives her a steak, and she will be fine.

I know only what I can see, not what I can project, what I need and want to feel, or what other people tell me to feel.

I found several good research and veterinary sites on this; here is one of them for people interested in the subject.

I’ve been living on a farm with cats, dogs, sheep, chickens, and cats for more than a decade. I’ve seen animals react sharply to the death of other animals, reorganize their communities, gather around dying sheep, ignore the death of other sheep, and abandon the sick to keep predators far away.

In the cases of Suzy and Socks, we saw them get sick suddenly, and I saw what seemed to be the concern of the other animals; they sniffed them, gathered around them, and seemed to protect them. They were aware something was happening.

Then, as the animal got close to dying, she went off to the farthest corner of the farghest pasture to die. We interrupted that out of concern, not wanting either one of them to be assaulted by predators or die alone in the cold.

That was our concern; I’m not sure it was theirs.

When these sheep were shot, it was clear the animals heard the shots, reacted, and watched.

Once the body was collected and removed, we gave them extra hay and grain to calm them down, and they got about their business of re-organzing and switching leaders—now, Asher and Ishakoff are in charge, that is clear.

It’s important for me to understand what I know and see and what I don’t know and don’t see. These animals are not like children to me, and they are not humans.

They have their way of grieving, thinking, feeling, and reacting. The more I see, the less I think I know for sure. I’ve never had a dog with separation anxiety and never had a dog that gave up dinner for too long over the loss of a pack member.

One of the remarkable things about animals is their adaptability and acceptance.

In this way, they are nothing like humans. I have never seen an animal mourn in a human way. I know about elephants, but no one can say whether they are confused and anxious or acting on instinct when mourning, according to the Hunan understanding of the term.

I hope to listen, observe, and learn more. Only Mother Nature has the answers.

The books I have read need to be more conclusive. We can’t know what an animal is thinking because they can’t tell us, and we can’t read their minds in a recognizable language.

I’ll follow this science as it advances; I know that no animal researcher ever got a grant to conclude that animals differ from humans. That makes me wary of the significant modern trend of turning animals into children and furbabies.

I do see that animals react to the death of others. They are aware of it, and they get over it quickly in every case I’ve seen, from dogs to cats to chickens to sheep to donkeys.

Of all the animals, our donkeys have reacted the most intensely to the death of pasture mates. Unlike sheep, they react vocally and visibly for days. Then, they move on with their lives. No animal can survive on mourning; they survive on food, which governs what I know of their emotions and habits.

What are they thinking?

I don’t know. Donkeys suffer when alone, whether out of fear of predators’ habits or awareness; we don’t know.

The people I most respect are the ones who admit that they don’t yet know what animals think. They’ll get there, but they are far away.

25 March

Morning Light, Waking Up To Great Beauty, Right Out The Bedroom Window

by Jon Katz

I’m lucky. The first thing I see in the morning is the sun showing itself at sunrise. The bedroom window is at the foot of our bed, so we don’t have to move.

This morning, Mother Nature put on a show, perhaps celebrating the end of the biggest snowstorm of the year, days into Spring.

It’s a sweet way to start the day. Mother Nature is the finest artist around.

24 March

After The Storm: Food Of The Day For The Food Pantry: Huggies Size 5 Diapers, $9.94. Small Acts Of Great Kindness

by Jon Katz

Sara Harrington just messaged me about the food pantry’s request for the most urgent and needed food of the day: food they are out of.

It’s Huggies Size 5 Diapers, Little Movers Baby Diapers, Size 5, 19 count: $9.94.

I know many of you have a lot to deal with; this enormous storm, flooding, and fires have disrupted our farm and many lives. But I need to help the Cambridge Food Pantry, its families, and its children daily when possible.

There are other items on the pantry’s wish list, but this is the one I’m responding to every day or as often as possible. It was a hard choice for the pantry between tuna fish and Huggies. The pantry is out of them, and there is a great need.

Feel free to make another choice or none at all. Thanks for thinking about it and for the contributions so many of you have already made. The boxes keep coming and going.

My motto is to do the best that I can for as long as I can. I can’t do better than that. Small acts of great kindness, the motto of the Army Of Good.

Please do not endanger your budgets, but if and when you can help, it will make a tremendous difference to an urgent cause.

You can see and search the rest of the wish list here.

24 March

Color And Light, As Promised. After The Storm. Goodbye Calla Lilies: Walk Away, Keep Going, Be Happy

by Jon Katz

I’m sorry to say that my beautiful Calla Lily is dying; this is probably their last day. This is a landmark moment for me. I love this flower and took great care with my photos, hoping and perhaps expecting some praise and approval. Yes, I have an ego, which is unsurprising to anyone reading the blog.

This photo is in honor of my Calla Lilies, who are dying. If I wasn’t able to respect their lives, I could undoubtedly appreciate their death. You are great flowers, and we shall meet again shortly. You brought me much happiness.

The irony was that the Calla flowers were among the best photos I’ve ever taken. I was surprised that they were also the most criticized and reviled.

My critics never mentioned the photos themselves; I just misspelled the name. My dyslexia has hit me hard with this one. I was accused of disrespecting the flowers and of denigrating the language. One man called me stupid and asked why I kept misspelling the flowers repeatedly. Many people did that, including me. But I knew the answer.

I also received an awful lot of praise, appreciation, and support. This is a much-loved flower.

As always happens, I tried to figure out what I needed to learn when I thought I had done something good and was told by several outraged people that I had not. It’s time to move on, I decided; this felt like Stupid Time. The poor Calla, I’ve been misspelling flowers for years, and no one has ever mentioned it before.

It was a valuable experience in many ways. But all good things come to an end. Bye.

 

Maria made this post-it, and I have it taped to my computer. Soon, there will be more.

The Callas are gone, but the Post-it isn’t. I plan to get more flowers and post-its this week; the Calla lilies are now my favorite flower of 2024 (at least until another flower pops up whose name I will almost certainly disrespect). Thank you, Dyslexia.

I have one confession and one thing to apologize for:

I knowingly put up a misspelled Calla picture this week and deliberately misspelled it and didn’t correct it.

I just wanted to see some of these stuffpots and correction addicts jump through a few hoops. Only one or two noticed it and bit; I think most have moved on, looking for other criminal misspeakers of flowers.

These insults were adolescent and lame. No one had accused me of insulting a flower.

Most original complainers have moved on and sought other people to target. I was taught it wasn’t cool to ridicule people with learning disorders, but that was a lifetime ago, in the lost world of civility and empathy.

I have yet to lose either compassion or empathy, but I did change the spelling; it wasn’t good for me to do that, either. I’m adding disrespecting mean people to my list of sins. I won’t do it here.

Taunting people is never healthy or proper; it is genuine writing abuse, worse than misspelling the Calla.

I apologize, although I can assure you there will be other misspellings of flowers in the future; my garden beds will be complete in May, and my Dyslexia does not love a flower and will not save me from misspelling it. Get ready for a wave of pretty pictures, many with the wrong spellings. I fault no one for fleeing or hiding.

I don’t know how to say this other than honestly, but sorry, folks. I love flowers and photographing them, but I don’t really care much about spelling them correctly.

There, I’ve said it. I have more important things to do and write about than how to spell Calla Lily or why I didn’t (thanks, Maria.)

You won’t find another word about it here. My readers have more important things to do, too.

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What I did do at the end of this silly saga to respect it – I won’t read or post these messages again or deliberately provoke floral self-appointed police as a kind of twisted revenge. I need to be better.

I also dug out ten shrink-approval ways to respond to cruelty online. I call it the Creepy List.  It’s good advice; I plan to follow it.  It’s posted on my computer, also:

 

  1. Please don’t worry. It only shows them they are getting to you, giving them power. …
  2. Walk away. …
  3. Breathe deeply; this feeling will pass. …
  4. Get going. …
  5. Be healthy. …
  6. Meditate. …
  7. Be happy. …
  8. Forgive.

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