Bedlam Farm Blog Journal by Jon Katz

1 April

Calla Flower Art Show: The New Experiment. No Flower Stands Alone. I’m Proud To Share It In 2024, I’ve Been Working On It All Winter

by Jon Katz

I’m happy to offer my first demonstration of my experimentation with flower art, primarily abstract color art. You can see where I am going as we head towards the Spring and the flowers in my bed.

I’ve worked hard, taken more lessons, toned up my equipment, and experimented with lenses. No flower lives alone or stands alone.  I hope you enjoy it.

The photos were taken with my Leica Mirrorless SlR and one or two lenses, mainly the 101 mm Macro.

I’m not using captions or flower names, as they can be a distraction. Tomorrow, I’m getting up very early to help unpack all the food donations sent by the Army Of Good. I’m honored to have this job; Maria is coming with me. I look forward to seeing you tomorrow.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

1 April

I Was Offered An AI Software Experiment To Block Hatred, Chilling And Shockingly Effective. I Can Have It For Two Weeks. I Won’t Be Using It

by Jon Katz

Long Ago and Far Away, I used to write for Wired Magazine. One of the people I worked with has become a well-known software engineer in Silicon Valley. We were both relatively young and realistic when the Internet blossomed, and we were convinced it would be a blessing for freedom and democracy. Finally, information would be free.

To some extent, that dream is true; to another, it often appears social media is chewing up democracy and threatening it severely. Online hatred has become a political and personal weapon, increasingly used to punish disagreement and free thought. My friend and others are now claiming AI software can turn that tide.

Being young and idealistic, we didn’t imagine the greed and indifference of corporations, who allowed their websites to be cesspools of hatred, rage, and bigotry to draw an audience.  We didn’t foresee that this anger and rage would grow and threaten our democracy rather than nourish it. Writing in the open on the Internet is now too often asking about social bullfighting.

I’m skeptical of my friend’s idea.

Reading my blog, he’s followed the hatred and cruelty that seem to be blossoming everywhere and on my blog at times, making me a fascinating proposal. He wants me to use new and experimental AI software designed to stop and block hate messages. It works simply, he says. The AI software is fed thousands—even millions—of hate messages and the e-mail, fake or real names of the people who send them.

They do this by collecting and storing the names of people who send cruel, threatening, or vicious messages. They also collect what the messages look like, feel like, and sound like. When the software is fed and activated, it automatically and instantly identifies and trashes or destroys these messages instantly.

I would no longer see them, although they can be stored if I ever wish to read them. He wants me to try this software for up to two weeks and report my experience.

I thought about this for a few hours, but no longer than that.

I thanked him for thinking of me and declined his offer.

As you know, I believe in confronting and sometimes exposing hate mail. I wouldn’t say I like getting it (who does?) but thinking about it, I decided that what the AI software should do is precisely what I am beginning to do and should do myself.

Instead of using software, I would block or destroy these messages on my own and continue with my work rather than surrender them to the software, which is so intrusive and technical that no one, including me, would know how it works, how it gathers all this material, or what it would ultimately do with it.

My arguments with haters (yes, you, Jullie) are well known and often tiring and frustrating to me and the innocent bystanders who must listen in or hear wanton cruelty and hatred.

But I am getting there, and no software will strengthen and empower me more than me. I’m not turning this task over to AI software; I will never be sure I have the strength, skill, or confidence to handle this issue myself if I do that.

Hateful messaging has not prevented me from doing my work, writing what I want, or loving my blog, my life, and the many excellent and non-hating people who read it.

Yes, I know this is how the Nazis started it, but I am not prepared to equate what is happening in America to the Nazis and what happened in Germany. I think that’s going too far for me.

I installed much more moderate software that allows me to delete hateful messages instantly and, with one button, ensure that no one sending such a message will ever get posted again and move their messages straight to the trash.

It’s straightforward. The software identifies names, languages, e-mails, and sources from which they are sent. It does not block, delete, or eliminate people who disagree with me, dislike me, or wish to challenge me on my thoughts. I can delete the haters if I wish, but I don’t. Those are the messages I want: thoughtful, intelligent, and civilized. Those are the messages I am getting now.

This is my work—writing in freedom, exchanging ideas, hopefully getting people to think, and hoping they will return the favor.

My software has blocked hatred 100 percent since I installed it, and I glance at it once or twice a week to ensure innocent and good-meaning people are not being blocked by mistake.

I don’t seek Nirvana. I love having some tension on the blog; it suits my thinking. I hate having hatred on my blog; it obsesses and detracts from me and my ability to think. And I don’t want an invisible screen between me and those who read me, no matter how much some might hate my guts.

There is an Orwellian element to this.

The haters will only know their messages never appear in my blog comments or appear in my e-mail. They do not know; they are banned, blocked, or banished unless I tell them or unless they tire of yelling into the sunset without the satisfaction of knowing they hurt or dig some damage. In my experience, they feel the best solution is quitting and going away. Haters need an audience to hate; silence does for them what sunshine did for Dracula.

But it has worked for me. I don’t miss the hate; I don’t miss the hatred it pulls out of me; I am more accessible than ever to write what I want and share it with people who want to read. Slowly, day by day, my dream is coming true, and if anybody gets credit for it, I do, and my readers do too.

As tempting as it is, I don’t want AI software to do this for me. I want to prove to myself, and yes, the world, that this can be done by ourselves. Hatred flourishes only when it hurts and is listened to. I can’t guarantee this will be a kinder and more compassionate world.

But it’s a good start, better than letting this hatred and cruelty flourish without challenge or the power of decency and honesty. Good luck, Jullie; I can’t honestly say I wish you well, but if you are reading this, know that you are gone and will never be admitted back.

My message to me is good for you, Jon; you are dealing with this in a mature, realistic, and hopefully compelling way. I told my friend I honestly believed I could do it as well as his software could.

Maybe I’m just arrogant; perhaps I’m a visionary. I won’t be a coward.

We’ll see.

1 April

Two New Potholders From Maria, An Eclipse Special, And An Ode To Butter Flies And Moths. Both Are Beautiful Nods To Spring

by Jon Katz

Maria is finishing up two beautiful new potholders today, both of which will be sold on her Etsy page later this afternoon. The one above celebrates the sun and the moon, made just a week before the eclipse that is gripping much of the country.

The second one is called the Butterfly and Moth potholder. It is made with vintage cloth and design. Both potholders are 8 inches by 8 inches and sold for $25 plus $5 shipping. You can see them or purchase them on Etsy around 5 p.m.

 

1 April

A Book I’ve Beem Looking For For A Very Long Time: “A Very Old Man WIth Enormous Wings,” By Gabriel Garcia Marquez

by Jon Katz

I’ve been looking for this book for a long time. It was one of Gabriel Garcia Marquez’s early works, a short story of just a few pages, but it said so much about Marquez and his writing that I never gave up on wanting to read it. It’s been a few decades since I looked for it and couldn’t find it anywhere, so I forgot about looking for it, but I never stopped thinking about it.

It was the only one of his works I hadn’t read, which left a hole in me. To me, Marquez is more than a writer; he is a spirit of a kind.

The story was worth the wait. I’ll finish it tonight. It’s pure Marquez, a brilliant blend of fantasy, love, and feeling, it foretells things to come. I tracked down a seller a month ago and got the book a few days ago. It’s not a book but a worn paper pamphlet published by Penguin Books in the 1950s. I found it offered for sale on Amazon, the last place I would have thought to look, from a book dealer on the other side of the country.

It is everything I imagined and more. Here is how it begins:

On the third day of rain, they had killed so many crabs inside the house that Pelayo had to cross his drenched courtyard and throw them into the sea because the newborn child had a temperature all night, and they thought it was due to the stench. The world had been sad since Tuesday. Sea and sky were a single ash-gray thing, and the sands of the beach, which on March nights glimmered like powdered light, had become a stew of mud and rotten shellfish. The light was so weak at noon that when Pelayo was coming back to the hose after throwing away the crabs, it was hard for him to see what it was that was moving and groaning in the rear of the courtyard. He had to go very close to see that it was an old man, lying face down in the mud, who, in spite of his tremendous efforts, couldn’t get up, impeded by his enormous wings.

How can anyone not read a book that begins like that? I will sit down with a glass of scotch and read the rest of it tonight.

 

1 April

Life Cereal, Sarah’s Pick. We Will Be At The Pantry Early Tomorrow To Unpack The Weekends Delivery (More Just Arrived)

by Jon Katz

I was texting with Sarah Harrington this morning—her supposed day off—when the doorbell rang.

The Amazon truck had arrived with another load of food for the Cambridge Pantry. It was the first of a couple of visits. The drivers are like family to her now; she had cookies and treats waiting for them.

She said she was going into the pantry early to help unload all the boxes that arrived this weekend – see photo above. I volunteered to come in at 8 a.m. and help; it was the least I could do. I shared the news with Maria, and she was eager to join me.

I don’t know how they manage to do all that they do.

I can’t imagine a better thing to do on a Spring morning.

Sarah said her food of the day was a healthy breakfast for children: Quaker Life Multi-Grain Cereal, which comes in three-pack boxes for $11.97.

Since she was supposed to be off today (but wasn’t, of course,) I added my inexpensive item of the day, one just as important as food and as needed.

Dial Antibacterial Bar Soap, Spring Water, 4 oz. 8 bars, $6.47.

That’s two or three weeks of clean and safe hands for a family for less than $7. Thank you.

I also suggest the Alberto Vo5 Extra Body Shampoo, 15-oz pack of 6, $23.94.

You can also browse the updated Amazon Cambridge Food Pantry list.

 

If you are sending the donations off of Amazon, the correct address for the food is Sarah Harrington, Cambridge Food Pantry, 24 E. Main Street, Cambridge, N.Y. 12816. And Thank you.

 

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