Bedlam Farm Blog Journal by Jon Katz

20 May

Photo Gallery: Bedlam Farm On A Beautiful Morning. Transforming The Past

by Jon Katz

I finally realized that if I wanted to change the present, I had to change my past.

One is connected to the other.  At times, I misbehaved, was destructive and selfish, arrogant and withdrawn, frightened and traumatized. Changing my life was a big order, and I trembled when I thought of the scope of it. Who was I  to think I could do that?

The way I did it – I will never be completely done – was to touch the present deeply, all the way to my heart – to find love, to do good, to shed anger and fear, to light the creative spark, to understand the worst and better parts of me so I could decide before it was too late just who I wanted to be.

I learned from a gifted therapist that the wounds and traumas of the past are all still there and will always be there. In recognizing the harm I have done, I also recognized the damage done to me and gave it the respect – not guilt or grievance – that both deserved.

To do that, I had to know who I was. That was the heart part—facing the truth about myself. That was my turning point. When I knew who I was, I knew what I needed to change and moved towards being the person I wanted to be rather than the person others created for me.

I removed the drama and suffering from my story. There was only truth. There were no good guys and bad guys, no victims and monsters. I stepped back and saw it from a distance.

As I tried to be there for the wounds and injuries of people I love, I decided to be here for the wounds and injuries I had received without bitterness, revenge, or self-pity. I realized I couldn’t deal with one side of the issue without dealing with the other.

As I spoke to the child within me and to those I love,  I told myself, “I’ll be there for you.” I became determined not to do those things and make those mistakes again. So far, so good. I’m not perfect, but I’m getting closer to good. Transformation and change are possible for me.

I’m in a good place and working towards a better one.

 

In her joy, seeing Maria with her animals in the morning lifts the heart. It is a posture of love.

 

I couldn’t find Zip this morning. He was sleeping under the wheelbarrow,  one of his many thrones. He popped out as I walked by.

Zinnia is taking her morning swim. She loves to swim to her limbs, but she doesn’t like to bring them back.

Lulu says hello. Translated: give me a treat. I always do; I can’t resist her eyes and nose.

Succulent, window sill gallery.

The raised garden bed is now in operation. I just wanted to know more to come.

 

 

20 May

Best Spring And Summer Child’s Help Request Yet From The Cambridge Food Pantry: Lemonade For $2.79

by Jon Katz

I love Sarah’s Monday request for food support for the nearly 200 children who depend on the Cambridge Food Pantry for their food. Lemonade is a delicacy they rarely get from a food pantry, but we are offering it to them this week with your help. And there couldn’t be a cheaper way to brighten the lives and diets of these children.

Sarah has requested Amazon Fresh Lemonade from Concentrate, 64 Fl. Oz, each one for $2.79.  It’s one of the least expensive foods yet.

The need for refreshing drinks becomes more pressing as the temperature rises here and everywhere else. While there are other essential foods to order, the pantry doesn’t want to forget the importance of a balanced diet for these children—and also a drink that will be fun.

The kids light up at the thought of getting some lemonade. I hope we can help. I’m sending ten bottles.

Amazon also offers other flavored drinks as a special offer: Cranberry for $5.48, Grape for $4.65, and Grapefruit for $3.33. The apple flavor is sold out.

In addition, Amazon Fresh offers Ruby Red Grapefruit Juice, 64 Fl Oz, for $3.33 for a limited time.

If we send these drinks now and in the next few days, we can stuff them into their backpack food and snack packs, which will be sent to them on Friday or any day next week.

You can buy these and other foods at the Cambridge Food Pantry Wish List here.

Children’s backpacks are getting filled by pantry volunteers. Maria and I also volunteer to pack the bags. It feels wonderful to do this work. Is there a better cause than feeding children in need?

20 May

Maria’s Monday Morning Video: Shorn Sheep, Beautiful Sun, Me In A Bathrobe. Come And See

by Jon Katz

I’m happy to share Maria’s Monday Morning video on YouTube and her blog every Monday. It’s become an almost sacred ritual at Bedlam Farm. You can see it here below or on her lovely blog, fullmoonfiberart.com.

I went out to sing for the video, but she turned her camera on me in my bathrobe. Oh well, it’s only fair. Enjoy the video; a lot of people do.

 

19 May

Special Flower Art Show. Explorations In Peace Of Mind, Bedlam Farm Journal, May 19, 2024. Meet Erin, A New Flower Connection

by Jon Katz

 

 

From Hickory Wind Farm, an Iris for the garden bed.

 

I don’t know the names of most of these flowers, but I love their colors.

I’m unsure what this is; it’s the softest yellow I’ve seen.

This is a dream flower. It makes me dream.

A fresh kind of red, another unfamiliar flower with great beauty.

I am not obsessed with floral names, as it is obvious, but if anyone knows what these flowers are, please feel free to post a message. Thanks. I don’t know.

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Meet Erin (below),  the newest member of my floral community.

Erin, who shares my love for vibrant colors, brings a diverse array of beautiful flowers to the Cambridge Farmers Market, now open for the summer. I was thrilled to add some of her blooms to my photo collection today.

With Erin’s Flower Farm in Greenwich, N.Y., I have some great flower suppliers to choose from as I prepare my garden beds.

My garden bed will come alive in a few weeks, weather-wise. She’s a great addition to my flower photography and a great source of beautiful flowers for my beds.

Erin joins Sue from Cambridge Foriest, Anne From Hickory Hills Farm, and Judy Pase. I have high hopes for this year’s garden bed. I got a beautiful Iris from Anne today and some excellent colors from Aaron.

 

 

19 May

Genius Story: From GAbriel Garcia Marquez’s Wonderful Autobiography, Which Has Captured Me. The Story of Century Old Parrot Lorenzo el Magnifico And An Outraged Runaway Bull

by Jon Katz

It’s a bit off my usual writing, but I am utterly in love with the autobiography Gabriel Garcia Martez wrote before he died. Every page – the book is aptly called Living to Tell The Tale, and every page is more wonderful than the one before. Finally, I understand where this great writer – my favorite as long as I could read his books – got the imagination to tell his beautiful stories.

I want to share one short passage from the book. Marquez grew up in banana country, in the town of Aracataca, along the coastal region of Columbia. The city inspired the village of Macondo, which is the central setting for his breakaway book  One Hundred Years Of Solitude. This brilliant novel launched his career and, to this day, insofar as I know, has not been equaled. I have long wondered what sparked the fanatic and mystical writing that was his trademark.

I think I know now.

The autobiography is true, and this one passage caught my imagination and helped me grasp the source of his remarkable writing. I’ll just quote it, and if you wish, you can read it for yourself. I never stopped laughing.

In this passage, Martez recounts his birthplace as a small child. It was a prominent, sprawling place occupied by the family’s widows, grandmothers, sisters, daughters, and various ghosts and spirits. Here, he describes the kitchen, which he was rarely allowed to see or enter. It was the realm of all of the mysterious and fascinating women who gathered there, along with a century-old parrot named Lorenzo:

Another voice was that of Lorenzo el Magnifico, the hundred-year-old parrot inherited from my grandparents, who would spout anti-Spanish slogans and sing songs from the War for Independence. He (the parrot) was so shortsighted that he had fallen into a pot of stew and was saved by a miracle. On July 20, at three in the afternoon, he roused the house with shrieks of panic.

“The bull, the bull! The bull’s coming!” Only the women were in the house, for the men had gone to the local bullfight held on the national holiday, and they thought the parrot’s screams were no more than a delirium of his senile dementia. The women of the house, who knew how to talk to him, understood what he was shouting only when a wild bull that had escaped the bullpens on the square burst into the kitchen, bellowing like a steamship and in a blind rage,  charing the equipment in the bakery and the pots on the stoves. I was going in the opposite direction when the gale of terrified women lifted me into the air and took me away with them into the storeroom.

The bellowing of the runaway bull in the kitchen and the galloping of his hooves on the cement floor of the hallway shook the house. Without warning, he appeared at a ventilation skylight, and the fierce panting of his breath and his large, reddened eyes froze my blood.

When his handlers succeeded in taking him back to the bullpen, the revelry of the drama had already begun in the house and would last more than a week, with endless pots of coffee and sponge cakes to accompany the tale, repeated a thousand times and each time more heroic than the last, of the agitated survivors.”

This book will keep me happy and mesmerized for a long time, and there are 500 more pages to go. I’m so glad to share a taste of this genius and his creativity.

Even this small story is masterfully done. The best was yet to come.

 

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