I woke up early today, my mind racing, I feel a bit as if I’m splitting myself in two.

This afternoon, I’m taking my computer to an Apple repair shop. I’m switching photo programs, and migrating tens of thousand of photographs from one photo management system to another, from Apple’s Aperture to Adobe’s Lightroom.

To do this, I have to leave the computer today, Saturday, until Tuesday, when I am getting special tutoring in how to manage the transition and use the new photo system.

Like many Americans, my life now – my blog, my photos,  music, our podcast, my money, contacts,  news, appointments – are tied to technology, to smartphones and computers. Unlike some, my technology does not isolate me from people, it connects me to people, living in the country, this is important. I never feel isolated or out of touch.

So letting go of my computer, and photos,  for just a couple of days, seems like a big deal to me, I feel as if I’m splitting myself in half, and worry that I will not be able master these changes, I am so familiar to the system I have.

Change is life, especially in our world, and I always choose change over fear or stasis. Change has been good to me.

The experience is being mitigated by our anniversary celebration, our one night foray into central Vermont and a beautiful old inn we’ve never stayed in before. We’re leaving at noon Sunday and coming back Monday morning. My computer will be gone until Tuesday.

I do have access to Maria’s computer, and I’ll put up a blog post or two, I imagine. But I’m not sure. I like the idea of clearing my head for a couple of days. The Bishop Maginn High School Wish List is down to one item, I feel very good and grateful about that. I sold three art class paintings over the weekend, two by Paw Lway Shee and one by Blue.

That feels good.

I’m reading one of the most fascinating biographies I can recall, The Great Successor: The Divinely Perfect Destiny of Brilliant Comrade Kim John Un, Anna Fifield. I’ve never read another biography anything like it. I’ll take some spiritual reading as well – Merton, Tillich, Nouwen.

I am anxious about it, I will feel a bit naked and incomplete. But I will, of course, figure it all out, and I am fortunate to have help. I’ll be blogging later today, maybe tonight. Otherwise, I’ll come up for air  Tuesday. Blessings to you. I see that I do need a rest.