So far, the most amazing thing about being a grandfather for me is watching Robin see the world for the first time, she is eager to see it and understand it. That seems a miracle to me, the birth of consciousness, creativity and awareness.
There is a great advantage to coming in and out of her life, I can see her changing so clearly. She is touching things, watching, listening. She sat in my lap during lunch and I could feel a closeness between us, or at least a great level of comfort, even trust. I think Emma is trusting me a bit more also, she is less concerned about the fragility of a newborn baby, which is very understandable.
I think I am sometimes too large an element to come crashing into anybody’s life but today it felt so easy and natural all around. I never stay more than a few hours at Emma’s, perhaps because I was also so twitchy with my own family, so desperate to get away from them.
I never feel that with Emma and Jay, they are completely gracious and eager for us to stay longer, but I am eager not to overstay, that seems right for me. Robin and I are doing well, we are learning to communicate, and I dearly love to see her discovering life and the color and light of the world.