My friend the artist Donna Wynbrandt sketching my doctor, Glen Finley.

Several years ago, I realized that I would never really be healthy if I stayed within the conventional health care system that has become such a nightmarish social, ethical and political struggle. My doctors spent almost know time with me, answered few if any questions, and were constantly pushing me towards expensive and ritualistic tests and prescriptions medications they thought I might consider taking for life – pills for sleep, blood sugar, blood pressure, cholesterol. In many ways I had been as unhealthy as I was unhappy, and it never occurred to me or them that the two were related.

I had gained weight, exercised little and had all kinds of back and leg pain. When I broke down and began my mental and spiritual healing, I also began to redefine my idea of health. I stopped going to conventional doctors, stopped taking tests, stopped taking pills. I understand then and now that the medical system offers many necessary things but I also realized that health for me did not come from the anxious and perpetual examination of my body. I began to examine alternative medications – vitamins, glucose support, herbs for sleeping and for making my organs healthier.

I studied nutrition, began cooking and shopping for me, then for me and Maria. I read labels, learned about vegetables, processed food, carbohydrates and protein.  I began a series of spiritual practices – medications, herbal teas, and most importantly, finding some love and peace. Photography became an important outlet for my energy and creativity. And I found a true healer in Glen Finley who listens to me, knows me, and has helped me understand what real health is for me.

When I visit Glen, I still have to steel myself as he talks to me, checks me out. Is he looking for health? Am I in trouble? But I always leave feeling healthier and sound. And proud of the work I have done.

I loved this image of my friend Donna sketching Glen as we all met today.