Lenore walking with me, after some snow, dusk

December 31, 2009 – Today seems a good time to pause a bit and think about 2009. I have lots of ideas for 2010.

This was an important year for me. I dealt with a number of personal issues, including the aftermath of a divorce, a sad experience that shatter’s ones life. I’m not sure that process ever ends, but I am moving forward.

I began a new relationship that, after a year, is strong and powerful, nourishing and supportive.

I am excited about my relationship with my daughter Emma, and the forthcoming publication of her baseball book in March. She is putting up her own website shortly. I am happy to see Maria’s art turn into a fledgling business, and admire her artistry, courage and hard work. I would not like to really consider where I would be without her love and support. We have had a remarkable time together.

I’ve wrestled with a considerable amount of fear, and it’s many attendant side effects, including sleeplessness, and am making considerable headway. I am sleeping most nights, and read to explore additional ideas about peacefulness, including meditation. I have come a good ways since my world turned dark and fearful a few years ago, and I realized I had serious issues to face and understand.

I am writing short stories, novels, children’s books, taking photos. I am telling my story to the world. I hope to give something back by teaching story telling in workshops this year at LARAC in Glens Falls. LARAC has become an important

I was happy to have helped publish my friend the poet Mary Kellogg’s second volume of poetry, “Whistling Woman,” in conjunction with the Troy Bookmakers, which sells it online. It is already a success.

I am finding rich and very rewarding new friendships, and am excited about deepening them throughout the next year. I am learning about money, and the management of it, something I knew nothing about. I even bought a few shares in my first stock! Gulp.

My dogs are thriving. Frieda has entered our family, happily and safely. Izzy remains a loving intuitive creature with a gift for connecting with people. We have taken a hiatus from hospice, but I plan to resume this work this year. Rose had adjusted to a life without sheep, playing, running, ball-chasing and hanging out with the rest of us. With the October publication of “Rose In A Storm,” she will have inspired all or part of four books. Lenore remains a volcano of love, lightening every space she inhabits. I am lucky in dogs.

I want to expand my notions of photography, studyiing black and white photos, portraits and new ways to capture light and emotion. I want to travel somewhat, especially to cities like Boston, New York and San Francisco. I am pleased to have revamped the blog and will continue that work.

I am struggling with notions of where to live, thinking of selling the farm, unsure about it. If I stay, I might get a few cows, to return animals to Bedlam Farm.

I have done a lot of work. I have a lot of work to do. I embrace this challenge and will pursue it as thoughtfully and relentlessly as I can. I seek to live a life of the mind, and a life of accomplishment, love and friendship.