Life is a jumble sometimes. There’s a lot going on in Bedlam. The donkeys are back, more sheep are coming in for the summer, my daughter Emma was her for the weekend, wedding planning goes on and there is apparently no such thing as a  simple wedding. Lots of old issues coming up – divorce, family, my own tumbled life here, regrets, joy, opportunity. It is a confusing and intense time. I have books to finish, photos to take, book tours to plan.

Fear bubbles up, then recedes. So does love, joy, happiness, creativity. A lot going on inside my head, which is not quiet, not peaceful. It was an extraordinary experience to share a podium with my daughter last night at the Northshire Bookstore. Definitely gets you taking stock of your life. I need be softer on myself, on the world.

Of all of the issues I’ve tackled, I think I have yet to fully deal with the fear that was embedded in me as a child, and which even now, when I am feeling vulnerable, boils up and over. It is also an opportunity for me to continue my own work of change, self-awareness and self-discovery, work that never seems to end. I’m going out to sit in the barn with a donkey or two, and do some thinking. Take a photo or two. Try to get hold of all of the things happening in my life.